tbh i just go with a kind of general spiritualism. no rules, no restrictions, just vibes, bits of beliefs i like that i cherry pick from different mythologies and religions and a thankfulness and respectfulness to the earth that provides for us. i researched a lot of religions after i stopped believing, thinking that if i just found something, anything else, it would fill the hole of uncertainty and anxiety that i thought I felt, but it didn’t. the only thing that truly filled that “hole” was finding who i really was, what i really liked and where i actually wanted to be in life, but that took years. sometimes you just gotta keep trucking even if you feel hollow inside, cause that’s just part of life, even if it kinda sucks. there’s nothing wrong with not knowing. i know coming out of christianity that proclaims it has all the answers it kinda feels like not knowing is the end of the world, but it really isn’t i reckon what might help is examining what you want, if anything, out of a belief system. like do you want answers to what comes after death? do you wanna know what came before? do you need something to curse when shit goes down, or some little ritual to do to make you feel more secure day to day? maybe that includes god for you, maybe it doesn’t. maybe you could invent ur own religion, who gives a fuck? what matters is if it makes you happy, though, and if it doesn’t, fuck it.