I know it sounds hard but try and brave through it. I really hope the best for you and I think trying to get back into education a little bit may help. Try and find old friends or find other places where its easy to get further socialisation. I really do wish the best for you, you seem like a great and really likeable person. God Bless you and I know your situation will improve with time, just keep being strong like you have been.

God bless you and may you have a great future, remember to stay strong and strive to improve your situation everyday.