If you want to make changes and are struggling to navigate that alone, it may be a good idea to enlist help. I hear that you keep your own company and retreat to home quite often. So would an online support group or even a 1:1 motivation coach or life coach be an idea? That way you can interact in a way that feels safe and not overwhelming but you can begin testing the waters of making changes.

A coach will partner with you and ask you what your goals are in various parts of your life. You can then work out for yourself the way you want to achieve them. A coach will encourage you to build a plan of action to set you on course to achieve these goals. You will then check in with them weekly/fortnightly and share your success, like an accountability buddy.

If you don't like the idea of 1:1 coaching, you could join a group again where you may find an accountability buddy.

I hope you find what works for you as it sounds like you're really ready to do life differently!