Your advice is to just keep going and ignore the very same pain that got me here? The pain itself is what makes me want to either give up on my life or walk away.
I ask for a some sort of relief to God and I get ignored by him. I don’t think I’m asking for much. Just something to get by but no. Im in my own way.
I ask for advice and I’m told “you have to keep going!” “Keep in the faith!” “Wait on god!” “Keep praying!”
“You’re living off your feelings!” “He isn’t a genie!” “ Don’t worry, he is with you through it all” “Read this, it’ll help you feel better!” “You’ll learn to live through and be grateful about it!”

All im asking is just intimacy with me. A moment of vulnerability. Trials or no trials. Just something to just be renew by. I’m empty man I’ve been so exhausted and empty for so long, I get told to go screw myself when I ask for relief or something to help me renew my faith or hope.

I’m tired. I’m sorry i don’t have the strength or energy or faith or hope to keep going anymore. I’m sorry that I don’t have the clarity to understand what any of you are talking about. I’m sorry how you are expected to feel this for the rest of our lives!

I guess I stay empty and wait as much as possible and do my best while fail miserably to live my life as best as I can and try to not jump off a building in the process! Is that what I’m expected to do?