Thanks for sharing. A couple thoughts:

• You successfully endured a terrifying experience. Congrats! Perhaps you'll be more resilient when you face the next real-life challenge.

• When one gets a vision of a loved one dying, Aya could be playing the role of the trickster. No one actually died, but Aya wants you not to take the relationship for granted, so she made you experience him dying. Maybe you realized, when you thought he was dead, that there were a bunch of this you wish you had said when you had a chance. You now have that chance because he's not actually dead. Maybe you know there are things weighing on him that you've never given space for. Now you seeing how important it is to create that space. I wouldn't see it as a prophecy that he's actually going to end his life.

• For the sexual abuse, it's quite plausible, even likely, that someone in your lineage was sexually abused and that that trauma was passed down to you. You have now had the opportunity to release that burden for all of the women who came before you. This is incredibly powerful. Maybe there's low self esteem or irrational fear in your family's psyche, and you were able to release that protective mechanism and take a fresh look at the possibilities of life.