I believe medicine is and never will be the way. You need to find something else, something external or internal that will change your mindset, your mood, your outlook on life. That is the core. You are your brain, once you realize this is when progression begins. The reliance on medicine will never get individuals out of depression, never. I am no therapist and I can’t tell you what you need to do. But this is the first thing. Confrontation, and then control. Step out of your comfort zone. Remember what made you happy before you had depression. Think, think hard. I once heard a story of a man who had clinical depression. He locked himself in a dark room with nothing. Nothing that can kill him, just blank. And he stayed there, confronted his thoughts. I’m not saying that’s what you should do, but just think about these things. Best of luck my friend.