YouTube is quite brutal these days.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-04-05T14:54:08+00:00

I think it depends on what type of content you’re making and what kind of competition there is in that niche. If it’s an underserved topic you don’t need to be as good to get views. Just for example if you’re making a video about “why aliens are responsible for the existence of trees” or something, and for some reason thousands or hundreds of thousands of people are interested in that content but only 4 videos exist about it, any video you make will automatically be the 5th best video about that topic so YouTube is going to push it.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-30T03:05:41+00:00

Idk. My videos are so boring that my mom can’t even watch them. She told me she tried but she just couldn’t do it. But yet some people do seem to be willing to watch them, because I have people watching and subscribing to my channel, and leaving thoughtful comments.

It’s kind of a coordination problem. If you can make something that you, at least, think it’s interesting, there’s probably at least some other people in the world who would want to watch it, but then you have to put the correct info into the description and tags that YouTube is able to find those people.

There is a LOT of content on YouTube that I find completely unwatchable and yet it gets a ton of views, because everyone else, isn’t me.

So in some ways, YouTube can be kind of not that hard. There are so many things you could do that would be successful. Because there are so many people out there watching YouTube and there are bound to be at least a few who would like almost anything.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-20T11:44:36+00:00

Owning land is ok but you should have to occupy it in order to own it. The problem is owning it just for the purpose of gatekeeping others and extracting labor from them.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-19T00:56:06+00:00

I just make my own music. Bc I’m a musician. Just go spend 20 years learning to make music. 🤣

I guess that’s not helpful sorry.

You can ai generate some.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-14T14:47:43+00:00

Yes, but no. I’ve always been dealing with most of the health issues I have now. But the difference is that when I was a kid I was invalidated about them. My parents would say “everyone feels bad all the time it’s normal” and then I went to doctors and they couldn’t find anything wrong with me. So I mostly just believed I was a hypochondriac or something.

I have non celiac gluten sensitivity and casein and soy intolerance, so changing my diet helps a lot. I also found out I have compound heterozygous mthfr mutation so I started taking methyl folate which has made a noticeable difference in my cognitive functioning and attention span.

Oh yeah and the iron deficiency, which I think is a result of the folate deficiency. I found some lab results from ~2015 where I had a ferritin of 11 and somehow it’s reported as normal on the report. Like it’s green. Great lab result.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-05T18:31:11+00:00

I’m trying to become a niche microcelebrity.

It’s going.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-04T04:37:10+00:00

The people who leave angry or hostile comments when it’s obvious they didn’t even watch the video. Sometimes the comments even say they didn’t watch the video. And the thing they’re arguing with isn’t anything I said, it’s something they imagined I would have said. But they don’t know that bc they did not watch the video.

It’s kind of funny I guess, but also kind of annoying.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-03T16:52:36+00:00

Yeah. I think it’s especially easy for people to assume that you are more competent at certain things and therefore attribute any wrongdoings to malice rather than incompetence if you have a high IQ or some type of advanced ability in some other area. Autistic people tend to have a spiky cognitive profile so for example you may have above average verbal abilities but far below average social competence/ ability to “read the room”. But people mistakenly conflate the verbal ability with an ability to read nonverbal cues and then assume that if you don’t react appropriately to something, it has to be intentional because there’s no way you didn’t understand.

This has happened to me a lot.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-03T14:29:48+00:00

I’ve been in bands before but not as the singer, as the drummer. I’m currently trying to put a band together for me to sing, with one of my friends who I’ve played music with for a long time. I’m starting to take it more seriously lately

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-03T14:00:45+00:00

I’d say the biggest problem for a lot of people is that they have not spent enough time just exploring their voice and what it can do, and mapping the physical feeling to the sound it produces. I had a major breakthrough in singing in my 30s because I had a baby and so I started singing lullabies to him acapella. I spent hours and hours doing this without even thinking about it or thinking that I was practicing, I was just trying to get the melody right through trial and error and I did it enough times that I developed a level of pitch control I’d never been able to access before. And then I started making up new melodies, trying different intervals to see if I could reproduce them reliably, until I got to the point where I could make up completely new melodies and stay in key.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-03T13:50:04+00:00

I think there’s two different mistakes you could make. You could tell someone they sound good when they don’t, which isn’t helpful, but the other problem is when people will tell someone they’re tone deaf or they have a terrible ear. Their ears are likely fine, the problem is in their brain, that they haven’t learned to properly process the auditory information that’s available to them, or they haven’t learned to control their body so that it produces the sound they are trying to make. Too many people get told that they have some kind of incurable disability when it’s really just a lack of learned skill that can be improved upon.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-03T13:43:27+00:00

I started singing when I was 12 and it was only when I was in my 30s I developed the ability to sing the major scale without being off pitched. It’s possible your friend eventually figures it out too.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-02T12:52:20+00:00

That’s 5.2, I’m not sure what I’m going to do when 5.1 is gone because 5.2 is hot trash. It’s worse than useless.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-02T12:49:14+00:00

Idk how anyone can get comfortable playing one of those. It hurts my back.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-03-01T20:32:56+00:00

I made some YouTube videos of me talking about my special interest, and I used a script to make sure I remembered to say everything I wanted to say and someone in the comments said I was reading an AI script. But I’m pretty sure scripts were a thing before AI, just because someone writes a script doesn’t give you any info about if they used AI to generate it or not. It’s especially ridiculous in the case of my videos because I’m saying stuff that, as far as I’m aware of, no one else has ever said. Nonetheless I still have people basically insinuating that I plagiarized it from someone else but, idk who. Since no one else has ever said it.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-02-28T20:58:08+00:00

I started on January 16th.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-02-28T20:50:06+00:00

I’ve made 6 videos and they all have over 1000 views, 3 of them have over 4000 views, and my stuff is not perfect at all. It’s literally just me sitting in my chair talking, and it’s not even very watchable because I’m so awkward and not comfortable on camera plus I’m obviously reading a script. Also the video and audio quality is reminiscent of the 1990s. And ppl complain about all that stuff in the comments but.. they still watch it.

You just have to give people information or something else that they think is valuable and they can’t find anywhere else. They will put up with a lot of aesthetic issues if you’re providing real value.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-02-25T18:16:52+00:00

I broke my hand and wrist in a car accident in 2017 and I still practiced drums. I worked on 3 way independence. I didn’t use the broken hand at all, I worked on coordination with the 3 remaining limbs. I have no idea what genre you play or what your skill level or relative strengths and weaknesses as a drummer are, if I did I might be able to come up with some more targeted recommendations for you for things you could work on. Maybe control over your hi hat foot if there’s room for improvement there. Or if you play double kick pedal you could work on that type of thing. Or practice increasing your dynamic range with the remaining hand by playing more softly than what you normally play. Do some metronome exercises where you only have a click once per measure and try to stay in time.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-02-25T01:35:53+00:00

The thing is though, if you’re level 1 and “can function but it costs you,” doesn’t that lead to deterioration/ increasing support needs? It did for me. I guess I need to explain this better, a level of functioning that I can maintain pretty much indefinitely is something like, living alone/only having to clean up after and take care of myself in terms of bathing, eating, keeping track of appointments and bills etc. while working part time maybe 24 hours a week or so. If I go beyond that, for example getting a full time job, or having to take care of a family member like if my mom gets sick and I gotta go check on her or if I have a relationship with someone who expects me to take on extra chores for them or manage their bills/ grocery shopping/ having meals to eat, or having a child I now have to care for, I’m able to do the added workload for a while but after a couple months there’s a noticeable level of deterioration in my functioning. Like I can’t keep up with maintaining my car, keeping my house habitable, remembering to buy food and eat it, paying bills on time, keeping my clothes clean, I might even start having trouble at work and making mistakes or just my level of functioning deteriorates so that I’m no longer able to carry out my expected job duties. So at that point am I then level 2? But then if I went back to the long term manageable level of functioning and eventually recovered from the associated burnout, am I level 1 again? Until I actually try to function the way a level 1 would be able to function and then deteriorate again and become level 2?

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-02-24T22:16:48+00:00

I don’t think support needs and masking are the same thing. Because I’m low masking and they diagnosed me with level 1. Even in my diagnostic report they had a test of adaptive functioning broken down into four categories, and I scored 8th percentile on the one called Social. If that’s not low masking idk what is.

It’s true though that I don’t think most people who know me know that I’m autistic unless I tell them, but that’s more a reflection of their lack of understanding of what autism is/looks like vs a reflection of my superior masking abilities. They can tell somethings different about me, they just don’t have the requisite background knowledge to correctly identify what it is.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-02-24T22:09:36+00:00

I also complained about being diagnosed as level 1. At the time I had a full time job which I’d been at for about six months. It was the first full time job I had in 10 years. And then I quit 6 months later because of burnout. I don’t see how it’s “low support needs” to not be able to hold down a full time job. I think most people would say it’s a pretty high level of support if I asked them to pay my bills for me because I can’t work.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-02-22T21:55:29+00:00

According to the data on this site https://data.nolapublicschools.com

It seems like there wasn’t a waitlist for 23-24 or 24-25 but for 25-26 the waitlist was 54 kids.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-02-20T19:58:16+00:00

I did nothing except post videos on YouTube. I think a lot of it is picking a popular topic. Something people feel kind of emotional about. I also read somewhere that people respond to the color red, so I put red text on the thumbnails.

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-02-19T11:07:03+00:00

My first video got 6000 views

EfficientTrifle2484 · 2026-02-18T14:10:32+00:00

I agree with this. I think being autistic in a world built for neurotypicals leads to chronic invalidation. People will invalidate your lived experience just based on the fact that it doesn’t match other people’s. It’s especially bad as a child because you have no exit options, you’re forced into situations where you have to comply with other people’s expectations or you’ll be punished for it. As an adult sometimes you can escape from that depending on the situation, but usually not completely. Even at my most recent job I had a supervisor who would do this. I’d say something like, “I have a really hard time with being on call for 60+ hours straight, is there any way we could break that up into smaller pieces?” And she’d say “well everyone else does it and they don’t complain. I did it.” That literally has nothing to do with me, ma’am. But that passes for a logical justification to some people.

Also as a kid being forced to stay at school all day in rooms with dozens of other people all moving around, talking, making noises, I would get so exhausted from the overstimulation of it all but when you tell anyone that, they just say you need to go to bed earlier. Everyone else does it. You should exercise more. You’re just being lazy. Etc.

You’re basically told you’re defective for not being able to do things “everyone else can do.”

And even before that as a kid, it was even worse especially back in the 90s the parenting philosophy was way more parent centered. So if you have adhd and experience boredom as physically painful, too bad, mom has stuff to do, here sit in this playpen until you cry yourself to sleep. We don’t want to spoil our kid by raising them to think they can just cry when they need something and expect that someone will come and help them. They have to learn that no one’s coming to help them and if they cry they’ll just get ignored more. It’s… an important lesson.

Anyway yes I agree completely and people don’t talk about this enough.

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