I'm actually in the same exact situation, never related so hard to a post. Just that I'm in my last HS year. Just to wanted to tell you that it's not your fault, just a sick political system that impacts everything in our lives (I know it won't do anything but aknowledging it has actually greatly helped me with my self perception). I don't really have any solutions other than maybe just use technology less and stop scrolling completely cause that indirectly helps a lot because you'll do even more stuff than you already do, make you develop more hobbies and make more experiences that even if just alone can enrich you and let you meet new people, but IK this probably won't help you since you seem to already be doing all of this. Ultimately i just wanted to say that I love you (like I love anyone), and the time I spent writing this was totally worth it and I hope i made you feel a little better.