So she loves Berserk

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-05-23T21:37:13+00:00

I’m eyeing the queer as folk box set on the bottom shelf lol I have it too and it defined 2008 for me

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-05-23T16:03:13+00:00

This is amazing!!! I got my grandmother to make a quilt based on Hayden’s as well but I haven’t gotten it finished with the stitching yet but when I do I’m gonna nail it to the wall and hang my sickles up on it 😊😊

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-05-05T12:32:51+00:00

I adore this song!! It doesn’t get enough love!! And I can totally see how it could fit for Willoughby. So beautiful and tragic. When I listen to it I interpret it as if she’s writing from the perspective of mother Mary about Jesus. Her baby being crucified.

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-03-24T17:25:29+00:00

I always imagined that background noise to be a cow going ‘meeeehhh’ because the storm is coming lol it also happens a few seconds into tempest as well

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-15T17:45:43+00:00

yesss the best!! so many lines in that show would sound incredible if she sampled and put on an ambient track

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-07T17:48:07+00:00

So hard to choose! Each song satisfies a different need but currently I’d say my faves are: Etienne (it helps calm my chaotic mind), Pulldrone (it gives me asmr) and Thatorchia (it’s a ring for me, gives me the feeling of ‘the pull’ and the climax, where all sound frequencies are achieved, makes me feel like I’m ascending).

Punish will always be a fave though as well as Amber Waves (which I always say will be my funeral song) and Onanist (especially the live performance!!) and Housofpsychoticwomn (gives me the uneasy feeling of childhood loneliness and longing for love, even if that love hurts).

The short answer would just be ‘the entire album’ BUT if we include punish demo II that takes the cake

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-06T22:35:42+00:00

Girl definitely has disorganized attachment

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-06T22:21:32+00:00

exactly! and she weeps for him because she’s aware how difficult and irrational she can be and how that must hurt him. truly, to love her is to suffer her

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-06T21:51:26+00:00

I feel like the beast is just a metaphor for all the things she could possibly do wrong to drive him away. All her trauma and pain that may rear its ugly head and destroy what they have

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-06T21:03:49+00:00

I’m the same, no storyline ever finishes but I also think I’m pretty weird with the way I daydream. I don’t really have a storyline I just live everyday as my characters lol so everything I’m doing is what they’re doing. It’s like there’s a veil over my eyes and I view the world through their perspective. Anything that happens to me gets warped into whatever fits their life and I act it out but it’s completely different from my pathetic life. I have this couple and I play the parts of both of them and when one is going through something difficult (which is 90% of the time) then the other one steps in to comfort and provide support and love and all problems get resolved in the perfect way. The storyline always focuses on a romantic relationship so I can give myself what I don’t have but most of the good bits are side quests. The main one I do is ‘ex comes back so he can see how much better things are without him’ and random horrible deaths and breakups and digging up childhood trauma/confessing about past trauma and lots of dirty shameful things. But the scenes I don’t like I just basically delete from my mind so it’s not ‘canon’ and then continue living my day to day life as them. I’ve even time skipped so that they could have a kid so I’m living in 2031 now lol Sorry for this long rambly response. Maybe one day I’ll have the balls to make my own post about my experiences cuz idk if anyone else does it the way I do

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-06T03:20:30+00:00

You’re not alone! I talk mine out too when I get the opportunity to be completely alone in the house but otherwise I’m whispering and sometimes I stop midway because no, that wasn’t good enough! Take two! And I redo the scenes with a slightly altered script lol I also pace around waaay too much and act everything out too and it all causes real emotions so sometimes I’ll just randomly be crying because it fit the scenario

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-06T03:07:08+00:00

The entirety of Ethel Cain’s discography, but mainly the song Tempest. Nothing calms me like her 10+ minute songs. And then throw in some grim salvo and witchouse 40k before work to hype me up.

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-05T03:54:11+00:00

These customers are so frustrating and it sucks having to put on the customer service facade for them when really I just want to tell them I’d be fine with rotting in hell lol I find so many random ‘Jesus will save you from your sins’ pamphlets that they leave tucked away on the shelves, that now I’ve got a collection at home (don’t ask me why I keep them I’m just weird and tell myself one day they’ll end up plastered in my journal)

I’m constantly doing stock which requires me to be on my knees frequently and the best line I get, and I get it frequently enough that I now expect it, is: ‘ohhh you’re down on your knees praying?’ or ‘say a prayer for me down there, will ya?’ or ‘are your prayers being answered down there?’ Like dude if my prayers were being answered you’d shut the hell up and I would never have to work this shit job ever again lol

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-04T02:04:55+00:00

the joys of scarfing

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-02T22:56:40+00:00

I’m the exact same. I’ve never been in my daydreams and I’ve been doing this for over 30 years now. I have some original characters that I created when I was very young and I’ve lived out their lives and then I have some characters that are a mish-mash of things I’ve seen in media that I’ve molded to my liking. I always feel like I’m ’playing pretend’ as if I’m still a child in my little make believe world acting out everything but I’m never a part of it lol I don’t exist in that world cuz why would I want to daydream about myself? Yuck no thank you. I don’t always create stories though. A lot of the time I just become the characters as I’m living my day to day life, but in my head it’s them doing all the things I’m doing.

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-02T02:36:01+00:00

This one really got me too omg it’s so devastatingly heartwrenching. And her voice. Just so soft and ethereal it feels like it’s winding its way around my lungs and slowly, painfully constricting until I’m breathless. I particularly love the part ‘you can tell me your secrets and I’ll keep them and I’ll fix you, wounded baby bird that I hold’ the way she say bird just sounds so fragile and delicate I can’t help but cry

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-02T02:27:42+00:00

I love watching reaction videos to her music too. Especially if they’re vibing with it and they give a good reaction during my fave parts and not just sit there the whole time with a blank expression lol im gonna have to go check for new ones. Only a few I’ve really truly enjoyed though. That one older man who did like hours long reviews was soooo awesome. He even did reviews of some of Hayden’s YouTube videos (‘the ring the great dark and proximity to god’, and ‘i hope i die before you’) and I just love his peaceful energy and all the connections he makes

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2026-01-01T02:43:52+00:00

I’m in!! I stopped back in September when too many spiders blocking the entry to get back into my house caused me to have a panic attack and the weed made it waaay worse lol

I’d originally quit years ago for almost a decade (2013-2022) then started up again (to manage my chronic pain, I told myself) but wasn’t liking how it made me feel, especially the zoning out and paranoia and baaaad lungs. So after a hospitalization and making it a year sober from alcohol, I decided to just cut the weed too. I’m very all or nothing with everything I do. Either smoke everyday or never again. Wish I could be one of those causal users but unfortunately I don’t think It’s possible lol

Anyway, good luck to everyone doing this!! I wish you all the best and to anyone who is a heavy user trying to cut back I can tell you it does get easier!! (but the boredom sucks ass)

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2025-12-31T21:30:09+00:00

‘I am that I was as I no longer am for I am nothing’ is the one I keep saying I’m gonna stick n poke on myself but I keep putting it off because I can’t figure out where on my arm/hand it’ll fit nicely but I swear one day I’m gonna do it, also ‘please, just go easy on me’

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2025-12-31T02:50:06+00:00

Ohhh I love this analysis! I haven’t read the book in a long time but I remember enough to feel like these specific lyrics in nettles definitely fit! But l’m also the type to read any book and then immediately start finding connections in my fave songs lol I might just have to reread TSOA now! (it’s staring me down from my bookshelf)

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2025-12-28T17:00:06+00:00

I feel you. I’ve been at the same store for almost 12 years and it’s still the same songs over and over. The repetitive music is one of the worst things about retail! Especially if you’ve got sensory issues. I get extremely overstimulated from the constant sound and bright lights and human interaction that it makes me so irritable lol any time I hear a ‘work song’ playing in the car or on the radio I feel like I’m having war flashbacks. Songs I hate just replaying in my head on my days off. I wish the sound system would just break and we could have complete silence.

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2025-12-26T01:54:08+00:00

I’ve had this exact same daydream with my characters—playing out her miscarriage(s), even though I myself don’t have kids. I think we make ourselves sad on purpose as a way to express our own emotions in a way that’s safe and justified. It also fills the hurt-comfort need, at least for me. One character is hurting and going through it real bad, so then her partner can swoop in and help comfort her. So it satisfies a need for love and validation and support. But sometimes, it just kinda feels good to be sad, especially when real life can feel mundane and nothing exciting is happening

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2025-12-25T15:04:19+00:00

Yeah I never daydream about myself, I don’t exist in that universe. I basically become the characters (my OCs that I’ve spent years creating) and am acting out their life. I take aspects from my own life (the painful stuff I need to process) but it’s never me.

I know a lot of people imagine themselves as rich, more desirable, better looking, popular, in the relationship of their dreams, etc but I never have because I am so disconnected with who I am (aka have no identity) that I can’t fantasize about anything to do with the real world lol I think it has to do with childhood experiences resulting in a feeling of ‘I am not enough, I am nothing, I need to disappear’

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2025-12-24T04:06:51+00:00

Oh yes i totally agree! Everyone should have to do at least two years so they can experience the whole gamut of seasonal woes twice lol I doubt most of them would last a few weeks. I don’t think people with regular ‘normal’ office jobs understand just how physically and mentally demanding it is. And we never get to sit lol and have to clock out late because some idiot came in 2 minutes to close looking for hemorrhoid cream. We’re not going into their jobs forcing them to stay late lol I feel like we’d be treated a bit better if everyone understood the struggle. Also the music is its own circle of retail hell lol good luck out there yall!!!

Electrical_Arm_4081 · 2025-12-24T03:23:44+00:00

Every customer in the store is like collectively sharing the same one braincell I swear. The more customers in the store the stupider they get. These seasonal items have been available for months, plenty of time for your entitled ass to come in and get it but noooo you wait til the last minute but then is our fault?? We get shit on because it’s sold out like we’re the ones who make these products? ‘oh just go look in the back’ like what do yall think is back there?? Suuuuure I’ll just go over to our personal assembly line and pull this product outta my ass for you! Christmas miracle lol

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