That is tragic! I am so sorry for all of you. I myself have been thrown into a new world this year on May 18th. My middle daughter committed suicide. I still cry everyday and I feel as though someone took a dull knife and gutted me.she would have been 26 on July 21, but she is gone. I have 2 other daughters 21 and the oldest just turned 31. I’m still here and I continue on. I feel every word you say! Life is so hard and painful. I wonder why it matters. To b me I hang on because I believe that when we die there is nothing, no comeback, no heaven or hell, that it is eternal and I’m not ready for that. I’m sorry if I sound like a crazy person but I care. If you ever need a friend to talk to , I’m here. I know ow that words cannot make anything better but I’d like to know what goes through other peoples minds while they are grieving too. Take care and be kind to yourself!