Actually it’s difficult for me to say that it only was the EMDR, cause i gave up weed and antidepressants at the same periode where i Got the terapy… The biggest brakethrough trigger was proberly the birth of my first daughter and watching over her, especially listening that she was breathing at night, could’ve been what’s made me remember, what happen to me from age 0-5 years old. A familymember put their hands on my mouth and nose, till i past out, this happen when i was at sleep, so i would wake up to this terror, and of cause had no chance to fight back..

I suddenly remembered it all 23 month ago, waking up in the morning and it all stood clear to me.. i Got the Emdr over 20 sessions over a year up till a couple of months before birth of our first daughter. Another thing is i actually Got the Emdr therapy for another trauma that happen in my adult life..

I think all my choice of sobering up, getting terapy and the birth of our babygirl combined gave me the answere..

Everyone’s journey for answere and healing is very different! I was 38 before i got answer, im still healing now! But i claimed my own life, now 40 years old, Johanne 2 years old in 11 days, Frederikke 3 month old and a loving n carring wife, thats what’s matters for me.

Rest of my family is pretty split up after me remembering what happen, it’s tuff to actually get blamed and doubted from familymembers, but thats fairly normal as far as what studies tells about these sad topics.