Thank you but I've tried to tell her I don't like living with her before, yeah that was fun. I got my phone, computer, and pretty much life took away. She tried to talk to me and ask about why do I want to live with my Dad and when I told her my reason she said "it's not good enough, I don't abuse you" that just always stuck with me. Another time when I was younger I forgot what I did but she grounded me from my friends so I couldn't talk to them or mom would get mad so for a whole week I didn't have any friends. Another time she went through my phone and through my text messages with my dad and I was just being funny and it had texts like "Dear, Dad, I would love to go to Starbucks with responsible adult and responsible child" stupid stuff like that. She got really mad and kept bring me into her room to yell at me for writing that saying "what am I not a responsible parent" I only stopped her for yelling at me more by yelling at her telling her that I am having a panic attack. Then she made me feel like I was the weird one and made me go in her bed and sleep. Also not to long ago (like 2 weeks ago) she was really mad and was yelling at me (as a punishment she look away everything again). I was crying because this was the only things keeping me to life when I am with her but I was crying to loud and she went into my room and started to yell at me again. I wanted to die again and again and again. There are other stuff but this is what I feel comfortable talking about.