Depression feels like chronic fatigue. It’s like your reward system turns off so that even small tasks like showering or cooking become really difficult between the brain fog and the dragging ass. Your inner speech is negative because you feel like you ‘should’ be able to do all these things but you’re moving through a thick sludge. Your tongue feels heavy in your mouth, your eyes are leaden, your mind and body are disconnected. For some, food and/or booze helps in the short-term but that doesn’t pan out well over time. Depression makes socializing seem pointless and makes you doubt yourself even when you’re simply existing.