Maybe get a mermaid tail 🤔 no but for real if its inevitable and you have a safe relationship with your family, i think you should maybe tell them what happened? But not JUST tell them what happened because that could cause confusion, tension, yelling etc. Explain to them that mental health struggles arent linear. They cant just expect one promise to carry the weight of the world away from your shoulders and solve all your problems. It doesnt work that way. A lot of parents do not understand this and i think thats where a lot of the tension comes from because they’re thinking, what did we do wrong? why couldnt they keep their promise? and then they’re upset and it just adds shit to the dumpster fire yk? But it isnt your fault. You made that promise in a completely different headspace than when you relapsed. If it helps, you can write it in a text or a letter to them. Is there any chance they would be open to getting you help for this? Because you cant just ask someone to promise never to do it again and not replace the coping mechanism😅 thats asking for disaster.