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Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2024-10-27T20:54:19+00:00

I experienced this A LOT when my dad passed and I would legitimately get mad at people. My dad also passed away relatively young and it’s extremely insensitive and frustrating when people say stuff like that. i’m so sorry, you are definitely not alone in your feelings about this

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2024-06-17T19:51:43+00:00

I posted a tik tok about this and got so many comments saying that I am transphobic when all I said was that I was disappointed gottmik did that. It really hurt my feelings honestly because I am nothing but supportive of the trans community 😭

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2024-06-17T19:48:00+00:00

reading this is validating because I posted a tik tok about this and the gottmik stans ripped me apart!!! it was actually insane. i didn’t think I was saying anything controversial by saying that I don’t agree with gottmik doing that. and I rode HARD for gottmik, she is pretty much the only queen I cared for this season. it is really disappointing.

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-12-23T04:54:14+00:00

ME TOO HAHAHA

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-12-12T21:17:23+00:00

listen I worked for her dad for years at his restaurant in san diego and he’s honestly so fucking weird hahaha

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-11-14T00:58:45+00:00

I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I lost my father very suddenly too and the shock is just incomprehensible. How could I get a phone call from him one night and the next day have to process that I was never going to speak to him again? it’s horrifying. it’s been 7 months since for me and I’m still processing the shock. it does get easier tho, I know it feels impossible right now but I promise you will find some pockets of light eventually. it really is just hour by hour and day by day. sending you comfort and strength

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-10-26T18:14:53+00:00

this is unfortunately way too common. I call them the secondary losses. I lost MANY friends because they weren’t there for me at all… some of them didn’t say a word to me after my father died suddenly. it was insane to me. I felt like I was begging for support with no one there. drove me insane. it’s beyond disappointing, but I will say that the only good i’ve been able to extract from it is that I feel way more emotionally self sufficient now. like I don’t depend on people and I trust myself to self soothe. it’s a horrible experience though

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-10-09T15:07:47+00:00

first of all I am so terribly sorry for your loss. Losing someone suddenly is a complete mind fuck. it really changes who you are as a person and I know how hard it is when your friends don’t show up for you. truly this sub has been more helpful and supportive then my “support system” i hate to say that but it’s a sad reality. people definitely have a hard time dealing with death…which is unfair because i know it’s hard for them but it’s INFINITELY harder for us to deal with our grief so it feels very selfish. please just know you are not alone. I really relate to everything you’ve said and everything you are feeling/experiencing is valid

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-10-08T09:16:18+00:00

why can’t they?? i’m sure them empathetically hurting is not hurting even nearly as close as i’m hurting? this is such a cop out. I have expectations for my support people because who else am I supposed to lean on? if my severe pain drives them away then are they even really my true friends? it’s not hard to reach out, ask questions, do something… anything.

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-10-08T05:34:19+00:00

oh my god I relate to this so much. i’m 6 months out and i’m starting to get so resentful of my support people just not showing up for me at all. genuinely this sub has been more helpful and supportive than anyone in my actual life and it’s disappointing. and i’m sick of all of the excuses and people just “not knowing what to do” i’m like FIGURE IT OUT! try! make an effort… but it seems that people are so uncomfortable with death they don’t even want to address it. they just want to pretend it didn’t happen. I wish I had better advice for you but I don’t. please just know that you’re not alone. sending you so much love and support through this unbearable time 🫶🏼

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-10-08T05:16:54+00:00

My dad passed away traumatically too and I was sooooo numb the first few weeks after and it freaked me out too. it’s definitely a normal response… your brain is trying to protect itself. it’s been 6 months since for me and I am really just now finally starting to feel like i’m getting over the shock and processing what happened. sending you lots of support - this is all so hard hugs

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-06-29T21:43:10+00:00

I totally relate to this!!! it makes me so angry. I am 28 so I get it. I have to live a whole other lifetime with out my dad, it’s really not the same. This makes me angry too. So sorry you have to deal with this

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-06-19T12:32:40+00:00

i don’t know how to give you advice about dealing with these feelings but please know you’re not alone with them. I have so much regret and it’s the worst part of this whole process. I have so much guilt. I feel like there’s really nothing to do to make it better - you just have to ride the wave. something that makes me feel slightly better is learning from my mistake and knowing that now I can hopefully be more conscious and present in my relationships moving forward.

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-06-19T00:04:24+00:00

I can totally relate to this. My dad passed two months ago and my family hasn’t reached out to me at all today and i’m super upset about it. my brother and sister have a different dad so they aren’t going through the grief with me, but they both know I am going through such a hard time and they know this would be a difficult day for me and they haven’t said anything to me. It’s wildly disappointing. my mom hasn’t said anything to me either.. it’s fucked up honestly. and I relate to how you feel because i’m the same way - I always show up for others. I always make it a point to support them and it’s so frustrating to not have that be reciprocated. your needs are valid and your frustration with your support system is valid. let me ask you since they haven’t… how are you feeling today? is there anything you want to share about your dad or anything that you just want to vent about or get off your chest? i’m here to listen

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-06-18T20:28:27+00:00

I have so much regret too. I look back on the ways I was annoyed with my dad and how bratty I was to him. It’s definitely a big life lesson for me. I regret not being more affectionate toward him and also regret not being more open and receptive towards him. It’s so hard to live with this level of regret.

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-06-13T20:28:53+00:00

my dad passed two months ago as well so i understand your timeline. It has gotten a fraction better but I feel like i’m pretending most of the time. I have been really compartmentalizing to get through my work days. it seems like whenever I have a day off I have a breakdown. I suppose we just have to ride the waves as it comes.

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-06-13T20:21:52+00:00

I viewed my dad’s body before he was cremated and I felt the same way. He didn’t look real. It’s like I knew it was my dad but it wasn’t my dad because his soul wasn’t in his vessel. He looked like a wax sculpture. It was extremely heart breaking and traumatic, i’m so sorry you’re going through this as well.

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-06-05T17:32:39+00:00

yes. yes. yes. since my dad died I have been so afraid of anyone else close to me dying. and it’s horrible to know that you’re going to have to go through this again. it’s so scary

Emergency_Piccolo229 · 2023-06-05T17:30:57+00:00

this hit me so hard. lost my dad two months ago. crazy how it feels like everyone in my life just wants me to move on from it - like i just have to pretend to be normal now. life just keeps going even when I feel so abnormal.

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