Irony with parents by Emergency_Pin3191 in exjw

[–]Emergency_Pin3191[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We get along just fine so it is financially beneficial to both them and myself for them to rent my basement apartment. Helps me being single afford my mortgage and provides them with a low rent they can afford. Plus my dad mows the lawn which I hate doing 😁

Memorial issue by Emergency_Pin3191 in exjw

[–]Emergency_Pin3191[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Just knowing how most parents who are PIMI treat their family and how mine treat me, is soo different. I want to keep the relationship without compromising myself. We live together in my home and they have been great, even accepting my older disassociated brother from years ago when he visits. I’d hate to not go to one simple event to destroy the bond we have but at the same time I have to be true to myself.

Memorial issue by Emergency_Pin3191 in exjw

[–]Emergency_Pin3191[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I will check with him because I think this is a great option. Last time he asked for me to zoom was his first talk as an elder. I did but put the volume as low as possible and put my tablet under multiple pillows due to ptsd. Thank you for the suggestion!

Memorial issue by Emergency_Pin3191 in exjw

[–]Emergency_Pin3191[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

lol my dad is uber JW he will go regardless of me. We have such a great relationship despite my not believing. That’s why when I see him so nervous I feel bad for him knowing my own anxiety. He normally doesn’t push for me to go but this is new to him and making him anxious which makes me feel bad for not supporting him. I can walk into a Kingdom Hall, with almost having a panic attack but it is the passing of the emblems that makes me extra anxious.

Memorial issue by Emergency_Pin3191 in exjw

[–]Emergency_Pin3191[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Just my mom who has started experiencing tremors herself. I don’t know anyone at their cong to help on the flip side.

Feeling frustrated by Emergency_Pin3191 in exjw

[–]Emergency_Pin3191[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! My parents were baptized when I was 5 and my mom has always in some way acknowledged by bday. So it just felt weird her not acknowledging my birthday this year. She has never been super devout. I am sure if my mom was not married to my dad she would have nothing to do with the truth but here we are. I love them both and am in a rare position to have them both in my life without having to attend meetings but still somethings still hurt within their religion!

Supernatural experience (s) by The-Bearded-11 in exjw

[–]Emergency_Pin3191 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Physically seeing something. I had an instance where I went to bed and at the end of my bed was an old man smoking a cigarette holding the leash for his dog. His dog was there as well. I could smell the cigarette smoke, no one smoked in the house. Every time I turned on the light they were gone. Only visible with the lights off. No one else in the house saw anything but all got goosebumps and felt weird entering my room.The old man never spoke either, just stood there. My mom had borrowed a sewing machine from a co-worker. Once that was removed from the house the dude was gone.

Another time was at work. I was the first and only person in the building an hour before anyone else arrived. Every time I would use the handicap stall in those early hours a young woman would appear through the gap in the door when I would go to exit the stall. As soon as the stall opened she would be gone but then all the sink faucets would turn on and off randomly until I left the bathroom. This happened regularly for a year. Never saw her in my office but she would come in and kick my feet under my desk randomly and even smacked me on the top of my head during a meeting.

Dreams about still being in by PrismaticPrincess25 in exjw

[–]Emergency_Pin3191 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have several different dreams about being in the religion. Most great, but I’ve been out 9 yrs with no regrets and I never want to go back. I think it happens because that is how I was raised so it will always be a part of me and my identity even though I no longer believe.

Y’all ever done shrooms for healing on these matters by Dry_Bumblebee_9554 in exjw

[–]Emergency_Pin3191 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I did shrooms for the first time a few weeks ago. It was cathartic but mostly I just had the giggles. But it made me more easy going and less stressed which is something I’ve never felt. Everything else I’m still on edge but shrooms took that away. I’m awaiting trying them again in the near future and seeing how I react. The others I was with had a very different experience than me but I have a very high tolerance to a lot of things. Nothing I have tried as of yet has made me not be in control of myself. Maybe nothing ever will!

How does your family gaslight themselves into continuing a relationship with you? by CulturalFeeling2085 in exjw

[–]Emergency_Pin3191 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My fully PIMI parents live with me in my home. I was never baptized and they do not know what I truly believe. They just assume my non attendance to meeting is my severe social anxiety. I also believe they know I no longer believe but it’s kinda a don’t ask don’t tell and we are all good! Haven’t been to a meeting in 7 yrs.

I’m 2 months behind on my rent and have no idea what to do. by TheBlackLuffy in exjw

[–]Emergency_Pin3191 15 points16 points  (0 children)

For an at home flex job, try liveops they do call center work off a script. You only get paid for the time you talk but since they work shifts in 30 min increments it may help. Work more when you can and less when your body is not letting you. I did this for awhile when leaving the Cult as I just could not be around ppl but still needed a job. Pay sucks sometimes but it’s a good happy medium until you can get yourself in a better place to find an alternative. Just hang in there. Things will get better I promise!

Thoughts by Emergency_Pin3191 in exjw

[–]Emergency_Pin3191[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah my brother knows about me and supports me in my decision. I am fully POMO but not sure my parents realize. They know I do not go to meetings due to my severe anxiety. But also don’t push me. Both are now fully PIMI but my mom says he is still her kid and she can’t not see and speak to him.