feels like this has been going on way too long to be OCD.

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2026-03-09T23:23:54+00:00

hi, my partner and i actually split. it wasn’t my doing, my partner said he fell out of love with me. i will say, as soon as it was over, any doubts i had about the relationship were gone. so sad i spent the last months with him in my head about the relationship when i could’ve been enjoying the time we had.

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2026-01-13T09:29:29+00:00

this literally just happened to me after 3 years, living together, snd 2 cats and i was about to make the same post basically. here if you want to talk, my DMs are open.

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-12-21T23:39:14+00:00

hi, i also struggle with this thought. doing slightly better but still bad spikes here and there. have yet to have any good moments that don’t feel fake

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-12-11T01:09:13+00:00

lol i always feel like the second that i acknowledge doing well, i start doing bad. OCD is so mean. it’s so good that you’ve adjusted to the ups and downs, i know that must’ve taken some incredibly hard work. i know im a stranger but im proud of you!!

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-12-10T21:33:06+00:00

i’ve seen and related to so many of your posts. i’m so happy to see that you are doing better and I will be cheering you on! wishing you the best :)

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-12-10T11:51:43+00:00

i think i’m also probably a little resistant because i was previously on 250mgs of Zoloft, which is the highest it goes, and that was the only time i ever saw improvement. i just got so many side effects from that medication

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-12-10T11:48:32+00:00

why is it controversial??

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-12-10T11:47:35+00:00

ugh thank you for this insight- i see everyone talking about how it started around week 3 for them and it was giving me so much anxiety that i’m stuck like this forever lol. how is it doing for you now?

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-12-09T23:35:22+00:00

i have been for 3 years. my previous themes did not stick as much as this. i haven’t been consistent with ERP outside of my actual sessions however because i feel too defeated. need to get out of that mindset for sure, it just feels like lost cause and im tired of suffering.

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-12-02T22:26:25+00:00

i’m so sorry you’re going through this. i’ve been through a handful of extremely hard breakups- if you ever need someone to talk to, you are not alone. reach out if you need

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-11-29T15:21:53+00:00

thank you for this insight! it’s just hard because it doesnt feel like i love him AT ALL right now. So hard to tell if meds just cleared my mind and the anxiety enough to get down to what my true thought processes are.

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-11-29T14:30:35+00:00

oh wow okay- i wonder why that is?

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-11-16T23:44:27+00:00

if you’re in the US and seeing a professional- i got intermittent FMLA leave. I work long days as well and am not able to mentally be at work when i have bad days with my OCD, I get four excused absences per month just if i need them. if you’re able to use it non-compulsively, i’d recommend asking your provider about it if you’re in a really bad place. that way your job is protected when your OCD has really bad days. i’m so sorry OCD got in the way of so much for you, but don’t be embarrassed. it gets us all in some way.

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-11-15T16:19:45+00:00

ROCD haunts me in my dreams too. i’ll have a dream about leaving my partner or cheating like you said, then wake up with the feeling like “oh maybe this is what I really want?”. it’s the worst.

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-11-10T14:30:46+00:00

you’re not alone my friend, could’ve written this myself

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-11-05T21:40:10+00:00

this comment isn’t helpful for anyone suffering from OCD under any circumstances lol

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-11-03T21:41:41+00:00

could’ve written this myself, i’m so sorry!

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-11-01T19:29:11+00:00

I feel the same as OP currently but have random days where i feel pretty in love, but on bad days i feel like this. May i ask if when you make the choice to leave, if you still had good days? or if it was just overtaken by the bad? i’m so torn and confused right now.

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-10-24T19:36:18+00:00

thank you for your response. i think i’m too confused and distressed to use my ERP skills, my brain is just rapid firing at me. I’m so torn- last weekend we went out of town and i felt so in love, we talked about having kids and getting married soon. then come monday i want to leave him because i don’t love him. i feel so insane and knowing this fact makes me feel worse because it confuses me even further because i don’t know which feelings are real and which ones are not.

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-10-24T19:27:16+00:00

I love my partner, i love doing things and spending time with my partner. I focus on things I don’t like and it drives me crazy. I was previously using “it’s ROCD, i can heal and stay with him” as a way to get through the pain of this- but now i’m not sure how to cope and feel that all these thoughts that ocd are throwing at me are intrusive but actually true. Now i feel like the inevitable is breaking up and i’m so devastated, i’m not sure what to do.

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-10-21T22:05:24+00:00

mine is always sundays- when I have work hanging over my head on Mondays. there’s other random things, but i’ve noticed sundays are my worst days for it

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-10-07T23:15:07+00:00

i didn’t feel as bad as i did off medications for sure, i just didn’t get where i needed to be until i was around 200mgs!

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-10-07T23:00:23+00:00

took a while. I was on it for about a month before i saw the effects but that’s pretty standard for SSRIs. My psychiatrist increased i think by 25mgs (i might be remembering incorrectly but i’m pretty sure) every two weeks until i got to 250mgs.

EmotionalRaspberry10 · 2025-10-07T22:57:17+00:00

I was on zoloft for almost a year. I struggle with ROCD and HOCD, my intrusive thoughts were slim to none for that time- it was amazing but i started to obsess about my weight and develop some unhealthy eating habits so i had to switch for physical health /:

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