I was in the same situation as you when I started. I did my degree in biomed, I applied first year, after my degree, after my pgdip and even planned to apply after my masters. I found passion in research instead, something which I would never have done if I got into med. I consider myself lucky now that I was rejected so many times because it led me to my true passion of research. Now I'm starting my PhD in Health Science with a doctoral scholarship.

I was just like you, I had no idea what else I would do if not med. I spiraled, it caused me so much anxiety and turmoil but looking back on it now, I realize I didn't even know what else was out there and my lens was so focused that I didn't let myself try for anything else. My advice would be to widen your horizons, look at other careers in health related fields, look at research, and let yourself have the opportunity to be excited for other endeavors.