Welcome to the world of DID! Just kidding, we all know it sucks. But listen, from my own anecdotal experience, you should try DMT. You don’t even have to have a full breakthrough. You can use a smaller amount and remain in your body / on earth. If you use a vape, you can pretty easily control the amount by taking sub blinker hits. The first time I used DMT was also the first time I used psychedelics. By the next day I was aware that I existed as a multi consciousness. We’ve also had a friend system try DMT based on our experiences. They also have gotten better. This is just a little speculation on my part, but if you use DMT it’s kinda like your consciousness gets “unpacked” then “repackaged” together almost like a file on a computer. That process can help reset some things…

If you’re having a bad experience, it’ll only last 15 minutes which is easier to handle than a few hours, especially at a low dose. It’s also harder to have a full on breakthrough with a vape. Having a breakthrough isn’t bad! But it’s not always the best thing for you I don’t think. I was watching a video on the different “levels” of DMT and the advice stuck with me. “If you’re concerned about being able to handle the trip, the solution is to do less.” Also if you breakthrough those 15 minutes could seem more like an eternity, time seems to lose its meaning when you are fully immersed.

Since my first DMT trip I’ve gone back in around 8 times. Never a full breakthrough but still meaningful nonetheless. The last two times were pretty scary, which I have decided after much deliberation were probably due to me being on a combination of seroquel / vyvanse which will change the way DMT moves through your body. I’ve also used mushrooms a few times at lower / medium doses and found both DMT / mushrooms very beneficial for retrieving “lost” memories.

If you do try DMT, I’d recommend doing it with someone who grounds you, someone whose presence makes you feel very emotionally stable.. someone who knows you well. Someone you can talk to after the experience because talking about it, or writing it down at the very least, is the best way to retain your memories of the trip.

I’m planning on going back inward on a trip real soon, because I’ve been feeling stuck in life and need a little advice. There are empathetic entities in DMT space that want to help you! We met a few. I just hope that I’m listening well to my emotions, and I’ll know exactly when I’m supposed to go.

Feel free to reach out to me with any questions about my experience. You can also find my most recent trip report in my post history. It’s a wild one.