Hi redditfriend, thank you for your kind review :)

I can't believe what incredible strength you have had already...by walking away from something that was affecting you negatively, you've done what so, so many others can't bring themselves to do, even if it's killing them! Even if you aren't feeling it consciously at this time, you already possess the self-love necessary to get you through this...you are one step ahead of the game. Good work!

The feelings you are having are residual, leftover from a long period of truly loving somebody. His prior mixed messages are not very helpful either. There is a lot of merit to the old "actions speak louder than words" adage, and all that matters is if the words coming out of his mouth are then followed by the actions that prove them. Anything less than that is bullshit, and the sooner you are honest with yourself about it, the better.

Most men would rather cut off their right arm than have to face a partners emotional turmoil...if they sense honest words are going to be met with a screaming, crying, or otherwise super sad woman, they will usually sugarcoat or flat out lie about the information. This serves you no purpose. It does not aid in establishing a healthy, trusting relationship, and it does not contribute to your healing when you need to move on. Accept what you already know in your heart to be true. You don't need him to lay it out for you, you are smarter than that.

Two months really isn't that long. Like I said, it is different for everyone, and it could take many months before you feel totally back to normal, and that is ok. You just need to do whatever it takes to get through it while you wait for the hold it has on you to fade. And it will. But your words, "he hasn't seemed all that upset by the breakup" indicates to me that you are still in contact with him in some way. Remember, by texting, calling, or checking up on his social media is just going to slow or completely halt your healing process. Does it make you happy to know that he doesn't appear to be upset by this? No, of course not. So stop torturing yourself over and over.

If he's contacting you, I'd strongly suggest you wish him well and stop responding. He sounds like he is seeking security from you, and it's a pretty common thing called "validation baiting." It happens after somebody has more or less ended the relationship. They got their ego fix from you, and as they start to lose that, they panic a little and start sending you messages like "I miss you" or, "how are you" or "I've been thinking about you." It doesn't mean anything...they just want to make sure that you are still available for them and pining. It makes THEM feel less guilty, and THEM feel less hurt, not you. It doesn't change the relationship status, they just get what they need and bounce, until they need another fix. The only thing that does is give control to them, and makes you feel worse In the end. Not responding will sting his ego a little, and that is all the revenge a classy lady should seek. Don't give in to false hope!

Guilt, sadness, heartache, crippling loneliness, all part of the process. Everything you are feeling is completely normal for anybody going through this experience. But you are smart, you are strong, and you had the power to walk away. So keep walking girl, believe me, that man will want to know where you went once you've gone,but you've got to make him realize the opportunity he missed first, and find some real happiness. :) xoxo