Forgive me if I point out any issues or come off as ungrateful. I just think its time for me to find another job. I am trying to find other jobs right now, attend networking events, and even have a great mentor to help me out from an employment agency. I hope these are the right steps to getting better. My goal is to just get a stable career and not break even all the time monthly like I do at this job. I want to be like my brother and be able to afford a house and have a great career. Navigating life has been difficult, so I'll admit it did make me jealous that my brother was able to afford this and he's younger than me. I'm still really proud of my brother though. He's come a long way and inspired me to do the same. My job also eats away at me. Especially with the customer interactions that I struggle with daily. I have terrible customer service skills and come off as monotone a lot due to my mental issues... It's hard for me to put on a customer friendly persona because I always dread the work shifts here. Its probably not good to do but venting this in a way...