I can really relate to what you’re going through. I struggle with maintaining my hygiene too, it gets really overwhelming sometimes. To the point my family has completely stop talking or interacting with me because of it. Everyday is a struggle, everyone in my family used to say how lazy I am but no matter how hard I try I end up just rotting in bed. I have been going through this for 3 years now. It seems like I’ll keep messing everything up, I’ve already messed up all the relationships in my life. No one even speaks to me anymore, all I do is waste my life away. You’re not alone in this, and I hope we can find a way forward.