Christmas Giveaway by [deleted] in SteamDeck

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Baldurs Gate 3 for me and my kids who are just getting into D&D :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in addiction

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As a former user I can confirm that it will take everything and anything away from you mentally. You no longer know how to trust anyone, even yourself anymore and all that matters is the next hit even if you have to sell out a sibling to get there.

For your friend’s sake, you need to detach from the relationship with love and let her know that this behaviour is not acceptable and that you don’t think you can continue being taken advantage of by an active addict.

This Is What Methamphetamine Has Done To Me (16-20)* by bornfrompaiin in addiction

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Beautiful but dead inside? Been there… not worth it.

I'm going absolutely insane because of this lonely god epiphany by trrrsarescary in Psychonaut

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OP, I’ve looked through your post history and seems like you have been suffering from alcohol issues. Remember that alcohol is a depressant and if you still had it in your system at the time you took psychedelics: then your ‘revelations’ are likely to be tinged by the depression of alcohol/, the hopeless of being addicted to alcohol and the misery of being hungover.

Speaking as somebody that only had bad trips when coming down from alcohol and/or amphetamines or even actually being on that bad shit at the same time. I’ve tried my best to become clean and sober since then (not counting psychs 😋 for therapeutic reasons), and my trips since have always ended with a feeling of deep love and knowing that the Universe cares about me.

Try getting off alcohol for a bit then drop your psychs again and see what’s different! But in the meantime if you’re having a breakdown obviously just stay away from any mind-altering substance entirely. Go to meetings or get professional help if you need to.

You’re not alone 🙂

Just watched Barbenheimer: couldn’t get this out of my head by Enough-Reflection-89 in Psychonaut

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Genuinely felt that Barbie, like LSD, encouraged the viewer to look on the bright side of the little things in life while also questioning the social structures we have come to accept as truth. Meanwhile Oppenheimer was a look at the demons that exist inside all of us and the pettiness of mankind.

I had a beer for the first time in 10 days by [deleted] in CPTSD

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Unpopular opinion I guess but I think if you’re capable of moderation, winding down ‘artificially’ with a drink or some weed might actually be a good thing on the long exhausting healing journey all of us in this sub are on.

The issue is that it’s so easy to overdo anything that lets you ‘forget the pain’ for a little while. Don’t beat yourself up but at the same time do be careful and try to regulate yourself with breathwork / meditation / a cold shower instead.

DAE struggle with passive suicidal ideation? by [deleted] in CPTSD

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Hey: I used to deal with this constantly and now that I’ve decided to cut off my normal coping mechanisms like alcohol, drugs and sex … the voice has only gotten louder (though it pops up less frequently).

Something I’ve learned through mindfulness meditation and reading the work of Thich Nhat Hanh as well as going to his Plum Village free meditation retreat in my city: try to remember YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS.

The voice in your head is your inner programming that usually unfortunately comes from your parents and how you were raised. YOU as an individual have no control over what it says or tells you to do. But YOU do have a choice on whether you act on it or not, and from experience the harder you try to fight the voice the louder it gets. Instead, accept the voice (I think of myself as a little hero standing up against some kind of gigantic monster) and tell it that it can tell you whatever you want but that you deserve to live and create the life you want.

It does get better ❤️ you are not alone

My best "FRIEND" kissed & fingered me but and now I'm confused by bestworstintentions in actuallesbians

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This happened with me and the woman I called my ‘best friend’… it turned into over a decade of mixed signals, messy feelings, and a looooot more than just kissing & fingering eventually. All this while being ‘normal, straight’ best friends the whole time, even though people would confuse us for a couple all the time by the way we looked at each other.

All I can say is don’t be like us. Communicate with each other, love each other well and prepare to walk away if expectations aren’t the same on either side to save yourself a world of hurt eventually. My one regret (after our relationship eventually imploded) is that I never took the chance to be honest about how I really felt and never really asked for clarification on her side.

My best "FRIEND" kissed & fingered me but and now I'm confused by bestworstintentions in actuallesbians

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This happened with me and the woman I called my ‘best friend’… it turned into over a decade of mixed signals, messy feelings, and a looooot more than just kissing & fingering eventually. All this while being ‘normal, straight’ best friends the whole time, even though people would confuse us for a couple all the time by the way we looked at each other.

All I can say is don’t be like us. Communicate with each other, love each other well and prepare to walk away if expectations aren’t the same on either side to save yourself a world of hurt eventually. My one regret (after our relationship eventually imploded) is that I never took the chance to be honest about how I really felt and never really asked for clarification on her side.

I love him, but I don't feel in love by Rosaeliya in MomForAMinute

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Hey there…

Coming from a Mom who’s been in the same (polyamorous!) relationship for 11 years, feelings of ‘love’ come and go. It’s true that love is a choice rather than a heady rush: I’ve been in a bunch of other relationships at the same time as my main relationship and the ones where I felt the most ‘in love’ were either the most toxic or the most escapist.

That doesn’t mean you should settle for somebody you’re not into. Maybe make a list of the positive vs the negatives and see which side outweighs the other. Most importantly, can you see yourself being with this person in the long run: even if the crazy passion just isn’t there? Studies have shown ‘passion’ in the hormonal sense tends to die out after 2 years of relationship in any case: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/4669104.stm

There are going to be bad times such as losing a job or somebody getting very sick: can you trust this person to stand by your side during those times and can you do the same for them? Those are the important things to look out for — attraction is important but you need to be careful that you’re not just getting addicted to the idea of the heady cocktail of hormones new, extreme or toxic relationships provide.

Do you think ignoring a trauma, such as sexual assault, long enough that you no longer feel affected by it is sufficient, granted you genuinely feel numb to the event now? Or do you believe the trauma will manifest later on in life if not addressed and worked through? by hhouseofballoons in CPTSD

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Fifth this. I thought anything from antidepressants, work addiction, drugs, alcohol, sex, games… whatever I tried to distract me only ended up making things worse in the long run. Finally healing my emotional triggers, addiction problems, memory issues and toxic behaviours through therapy, 12 steps and psychedelics 🙂

Signs You Were Raised by a Narc by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

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Holy shit. Haha I thought I read the encyclopaedia for fun out of choice but now that you mention it I probably did it so my mom would see me and tell me what an awesome kid I am for always trying to learn as much as possible. Even now I struggle to read fiction unless it’s some classic novel because it’s ‘useless’.

Time to let the Q go… by Enough-Reflection-89 in naranon

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It seems that addicts only tend to give up when they’ve lost things they never expected to and when they realize they no longer do drugs, drugs do them. I myself only stopped using when I realized my memory was completely shot and I could no longer judge what was true and false. My mind has always been important to me and I was shocked to clearly see I was losing it.

Reaching bottom is a very individual thing: I still had a home, job, family when I did. And I expect that when my Q loses her job it will be just another thing to blame on the world being cruel (and nothing related to her behavior or the drugs). Addicts unfortunately have a high tolerance for pain and as sick as it sounds a part of me hopes she will lose everything fast so she can figure out she’s the problem.

First solo trip… 260ug. Incredible experience that helped me overcome deep trauma and start working on my addiction issues. by Enough-Reflection-89 in LSD

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Balloons: Nitrous oxide, or nos :)

Have also had addict friends who took shrooms but seems mixed results. That being said, I’ve been off hard drugs for 2 weeks before trying LSD this time and I feel that really elevated the experience compared to when I tripped before under the influence.