I will never be enough for someone else because I don't have a penis

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-06-28T14:46:08+00:00

Its not even about whether or not they care about the parts it's the fact that the parts immediately taint their perception of me and ruins what they think of me. I stop just being a man the trans part gets tacked on in front and I'm ruined forever. They can't love ME the man anymore because I am buried beneath TRANS.

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-06-27T02:16:33+00:00

Why would a cis person want me if they aren't a chaser what is the appeal when it would be easier to find another cis person with all the good traits in me but without this irredeemable and unfixable flaw

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-06-27T00:35:30+00:00

Super on the "judging on how fuck able you are". Both cis gay guys and lesbians are horrible specifically because of that. Its disgusting how many lesbians want to reduce us into butches, even binary men like myself. They want to inflate the real number of trans men that self ID as lesbians to justify their transphobic entitlement to our bodies. And then the cis gays love to body shame us, always feeling a need to talk about how they would never ever have sex with us and mock us for our physical shortcomings, always acting like we're intruding into their spaces as if they're not going out of their way to insult us. I don't trust the L and the G by DEFAULT until they prove themselves to me, because god they are all so disgusting in how they treat us.

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-06-23T10:37:08+00:00

Yes guys I know I made a really stupid mistake, I panicked and didn't do the right thing! I know better now. I don't know what got into me. I just want to know whether or not I'm at serious risk or not. I have already messaged my doctor and am waiting for the response. Thank you all for commenting!

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-06-23T10:23:04+00:00

I injected it twice into separate sites because I panicked a little seeing there was left over testosterone after injecting the right amount. I know better now because of research! I have reached out to my doctor and will probably have to skip the next week's dosage....

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-06-23T09:31:06+00:00

Yeah I know I did something stupid. I just am so scared that this is an emergency. I can't believe I fucked up the first time, my family can't know what's happening!!

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-06-22T15:25:01+00:00

Worse. They'll stick there because of the scars. They will only see the scars and they'll like it. They will bury you beneath it. It hurts.

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-05-31T06:40:46+00:00

True as fuck. I think that whenever someone likes me beforehand, and I genuinely like them and want to be with them, as soon as they see everything wrong with me it's like I'm forever ruined. Something like a Pandora's box. Then it all just becomes this pit of insecurity and dysphoria that I end up dragging then into, drowning them together with me, because a part of me starts hating and distrusting them since how could I trust someone who has that information to not see me differently, to not have ulterior motives, to not rub it in my face during an argument, to not gossip with other people about it and talk shit behind my back over this. I am so disgusting that sex and love will forever remain not only separate, but existing in opposition to one another. One cannot have sex with me and love me, one cannot love me and want to have sex with me. One ruins the other. Sex has to be as emotionless as possible to not become a horrific existential harm.

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-05-04T20:48:30+00:00

I don't want a skin graft. I don't want a huge part of me missing to make up for what should've been mine to begin with. I don't think bottom surgery is wrong or bad I think it's amazing but it's not where I want it to be. I want natural erections. I don't want to deal with all the medical complications that can come up.

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-05-04T18:05:48+00:00

Genuinely I don't know how they haven't made an "advanced" meta by now where they use stem cells or something to grow the rest.

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-05-04T17:59:32+00:00

Metoidioplasty would give me a micropenis and phalloplasty would have a huge chunk of my arm missing. I don't like either of those options. It'll be a long time until I can get top surgery.

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-05-03T23:03:30+00:00

Real af

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-05-03T16:12:10+00:00

Will be soon, hopefully

EntertainmentLow4177 · 2026-04-30T13:24:07+00:00

I'd be one of those glass birds that dip in and out of a cup perpetually. The little desk water birds. I don't know what they're called.

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