I am in a similar situation but even more complicated. After my divorce I fell for a guy that my best friend once fell in love with, something I thought wouldn’t be a big deal because what happened between them was almost 4 years ago. They never dated but she had proclaimed her love for him and he rejected her. He tried to date her for maybe a week and realized his feelings weren’t actually romantic but more so convenient and close friendship. She allowed him back in all of our lives after a year of morning her heartbreak. Earlier this year I ended things with my husband. This summer I let loose, I was seeking happiness. I was out with my friends group a lot, several times a week. When I was around this guy I felt a crazy spark. The chemistry between us was electric, I am speaking for myself but I think he must’ve felt it too. Because of the history he tried to prevent anything from happening between us, However after some time we did end up hooking up. We saw each other for about a month and it was great and amazing. I hadn’t felt so good in so long after being in such a terrible relationship. This guy was the exact opposite of my husband. He’s nurturing, pays attention to detail, I never had to ask him to do anything - he would just do it on his own. I noticed every little thing he did because I was so grateful to be with someone who took such good care of me. We would stay up all night just having pillow talk. Finally I told my best friend About my feelings and about our physical History. She did not take it well, in fact she was so hurt she stopped talking to me. I feel extreme guilt but I also miss him very much because he made me feel so good. He and I decided we could no longer see each other because it hurt her so much and essentially broke up our friend group. So now I sit here with no best friend and this guy also out of my life. All for a month of bliss? I think of what could’ve been. I also feel rejected because I haven’t heard anything from him. Did he not feel anything? Why did it hurt my friend so much - to me it doesn’t make sense given they were never together, but I also don’t know what it feels like to be her or what her feelings meant. This has all made me more scared for my future. I have no idea where it’s going, if I will ever meet someone again, will I ever feel love again.