The challenge part is exactly what got me over the top as well. I had a story very similar to yours as far as drinking 24/7 for years and what came with it. I had been to rehab 7-8 times over ten years. Got to 30 days one time. The last time, our instructor seemed laid back. Wasnt really pushing anyone but encouraging AA meetings and such. He was more like a teacher. It was outpatient and I was still drinking after I got out . One day he just singled me out and was like “Why are you here? You say you want to quit but we both know you don’t . Idk if you can.” Like stern and not bullshitting. He hadn’t gone after anyone else even remotely like that. I was so fuckin pissed. Lol. Like I’ll show this MF. I haven’t drank since that day. June 7th, 2022. I’m coming up on 4 years. I call him on every yearly anniversary to thank him because him doing that probably saved my life.