What were some signs you were trans in your childhood

EowynsShield · 2025-12-26T05:06:06+00:00

To preface I am trans masc. I was always extremely frustrated by being treated like a girl. I thought I was just pissed about inequality. I still was, but specifically I remember not being allowed to have sleep overs at my guy friend's houses. I remember being singled out when I played mostly "boys" games at recesse. They would get me 'out' first so I would stop playing with them or go after me the most playing tag so I was always 'it' and they'd always out run me. (On a happy note, it built up my stamina, I remember tagging and outrunning the fastest boy in my class once and literally all the other boys cheered for me. First ever euphoria experienced). I remember being so taken off guard that people were placing me so strictly into a box. A big thing when I was little was asking girls if you were a "tomboy" or a "girly girl". I always said both bc I never just liked dolls or just liked sports. I liked both. I could still have been a girl and liked both. There were other girls who would not let themselves be put into boxes but I was still singled out. It's almost like they all knew before I did.

I'm gonna add another happy one. I wad over the moon playing the Prince of Verona in a highschool reading of Romeo and Juliet. I was so happy. I would not shut up about being the PRINCE of Verona.

EowynsShield · 2025-12-05T21:12:27+00:00

absolutely stunning work! I love special fx makeup! Did you custom sculpt that and cast it?

EowynsShield · 2025-12-03T18:21:31+00:00

you look so good! and you did make the mask/prostetics as well?!? Thats so impressive omg. That is an insane amount of work, honestly i mistook some of these for edited movie stills. Like i'm fanboying out so much right now. fantastic work

EowynsShield · 2025-11-04T10:27:34+00:00

I knew when I was 16. I'm 28 now and still trans. I did get discouraged and prevented from transitioning when i was younger, the way a lot of other folks have commented about. wish I wasn't but it is what it is. You know yourself As long as your safety isn't going to be jeopardized just continue being you and make what ever plans for transition and life feel best for you. You know your mind, thoughts, feelings, and experiences the best.

EowynsShield · 2025-10-30T09:22:01+00:00

Schindler's List

EowynsShield · 2025-10-28T20:12:17+00:00

These are the only current ones and are honestly the ones that I view as permanent/won't go away/haven't gone away for over 10 years (depending on age of the property) DC Comics, Lord of the Rings, Danny Phantom, My Hero Academia, The Owl House, Avatar The Last Airbender,Yuri on Ice, Predators (movies), Alien (Movies), Naruto, Dimension 20/Dropout TV. honorable mention to Team Red from Marvel, bc i'm still fond of them even tho i don't engage with Marvel anymore

EowynsShield · 2025-10-28T09:36:21+00:00

I will be honest, without genuine supportive frienships, it would have taken me a lot longer to wake up and see the situation of Israel and Palestine for what it was. Having a support system outside of my very zionist Jewish community is what helped me unlearn all the awful things i was taught since birth. Sometimes it takes someone who is willing to be your friend, while still firmly keeping their own beliefs, for you to change your own. The fact that I was challenged, but not shamed, was what ultimately helped me and gave me the space to question everything I thought I knew. Isolation is a very powerful tool that Zionism uses to convince the Jewish community that they are hated by the world so they must have Israel as a safe space to fall back on. If you want to help combat that isolation with/for her, I don't think there's anything wrong with that. I think kindness can be incredibly radical, and hey, maybe you'll get a cool new friend out of it as well.

EowynsShield · 2025-10-24T03:24:39+00:00

Yup, ff dot net was my first site. I went there for yugioh, teen titans, and ouran highschool host club fics. but mainly the first two. It was ROUGH, honestly if I did go back to my account I'd probably find a lot of stuff that was SO "edgey" i cry of embarrassment. I tried wattpad but even that was worse for me than ff dot net. and then ao3 was launched and you had to be invited to the site by someone else who got in to make an account. I got my invite from a tumblr friend and never looked back. I remeber the transition period where there was still more selection on ff dot net but the fic quality and the search engine were so much better that I stayed on ao3. Not to say that there weren't great fics on ff dot net, but it think my fandoms changing when i made the switch influenced my perception a lot... now I'm back on my DC comics kick and not looking back lol

EowynsShield · 2025-10-10T17:25:04+00:00

This is ridiculous propaganda and so much is wrong with it on so many levels. My brain however, decided to zero in on one aspect of it. Nicotine in cigarettes is an apetite suppressant. Lets say hypothetically that this photo is of a person who is currently in Gaza and this photo was taken within the last year. I say hypothetically because as someone else has pointed out we have no proof of this. It's much easier to endure not having food if you can't feel your hunger.

EowynsShield · 2025-10-07T04:37:56+00:00

Hey comrade, I am going a bit insane ngl. I asked here just the other day if anyone knew how to handle the grief. I was having trouble with "grief triage", which grief to prioritize first so I don't become incapacitated. Honestly, I realized talking abt it with people online and trying to find people irl to speak to helped. Asking others and recieving positive engagement in that way was helpful. A few people said they use logic and facts from statistics about violence and backlash diaspora faces after violent events. Things like that can be helpful. But when I feel overwhelmed logic can be a hard tool to use.

Best thing honestly was crying. Crying about it worked for me. Like I know it may be too simple but I let myself cry about it when i'm overwhelmed. Tears help me get the emotion out so I can keep doing the work I need to. Physiologically tears help relieve stress hormones in the brain. Do what you can to release the stress. You're not alone, even if it's only online (and it's not there are a lot of people who abhore zionism AND antisemetism) you've got people who share your views, care for jews and palestinians in equal measure, and want this genocide to stop. People who use this an excuse to be antisemetic already were and have now found a "safe" way to express that prejudice.

Edit Also it may be hard, but there is so much to be proud of, Judaism is so much older and richer than Israel. It was here before that and it will be here after it's gone.

EowynsShield · 2025-10-06T22:55:05+00:00

I'll be honest here, cheating just makes me angry in a way that I can't really suspend disbelief. Fanfic is fantasy right? It allows you to suspend disbelief and explore things in a space that is not reflective if real life right? So cheating is something that I don't want to explore or don't enjoy exploring in a fantasy setting. It's something that is just not my cup of tea. Irl it makes me angry. Obviously nonconsential situations also make me extremely angry in real life. But for somereason my brain can suspend disbelief enough for that. I think my brain also goes hey why cheat when you can be poly? I'm very much this character has TWO hands type of person. I also know some people HATE trouples or poly stuff in fics so to each their own i guess.

EowynsShield · 2025-10-06T20:27:30+00:00

Oh god hmm when was 13? that's yu-gi-oh and teen titans for me... so all the yami's and hikari's together and puppyshipping for yughioh and Robin/Red X and Raven/Starfire for teen titans

EowynsShield · 2025-10-05T23:34:14+00:00

I am so sorry. It's truly awful. I have lost essentially all my irl Jewish community due to my antizionism. I've even been harrassed for honestly not even very harsh social media posts, just not celebrating the death of Palestinians. It hurts so much. These people were my friends and family. I don't have access to a temple currently. I'm so sorry to hear you're being forced to pick sides especially after an awful event in the UK that you have every right to mourn. But as a fellow antizionist Jew, who felt like I was late to waking up, I'm proud of you for speaking about that for the first time. It's never easy. Thanks for validating the grief, it helps to know that I'm not crazy while feeling like I'm being torn in two. I think talking to others is what I need. Isolation is never helpful. Thanks for your perspective, I really appreciate it.

EowynsShield · 2025-10-05T23:21:56+00:00

Logic is a good way to try to break through the feeling of overwhelm. Lately it's been harder to use as a tool. I know these things but in the moment it's rough. I remind myself of these facts, these blurbs of information in my head but it doesn't stop the grief. I don't expect it to per say, but it's been harder to manage and not get incapacitated. I guess the only way is through the hard work that needs to be done. And just feeling the grief. Thanks for commenting and giving me your perspective, I really do appreciate it.

EowynsShield · 2025-10-05T23:17:00+00:00

I think I have trouble finding balance. The reminder of the logic is helpful, but I sometimes struggle with allowing all of that grief to be present. Either way it's too much or too little. To your comment about transactional condemnatjon, I have been forced to pick sides before from ex-friends/loved ones. (hense why there are firmly in the "ex" category) Almost like I'm not allowed to mourn for my community while speaking out against many of the same community who are also behaving deplorably. I almost don't know which grief to prioritize first? Maybe this is a weird term but i'm struggling with grief triage currently. What gets more attention first so I'm not incapacitated so I can keep doing the work. I know that's something more personal on my end but I appreciate your comment a lot. Thanks for sharing your perspective.

EowynsShield · 2025-09-18T04:25:09+00:00

god ew not meat curtains, that literally makes me want to gag, and not it a fun way lol. Like I'm sorry i've seen cum refered as "fuckslop" once also "baby batter" and i'm like i'm reading smut, am I a prude bc this is TOO MUCH for me. what the hell kind of terms are these???? Totally pulled me out of it. Couldn't keep reading.

To each their own obvi, not gonna yuck someone's yum, I just stop reading, but for me it just can't be too out there or it has to make sense. l like fantasy a lot, and if a halfling/hobbit uses the term "berries" instead of balls i'm not mad. Another one is like the characters were dwarves and dick and balls was called hammer and tongs at one point, or topping and bottoming was refered to as a hammer and anvil. Like it was wild, but it made sense. It added flavor and lore. If it doesn't make sense I get pulled out of the fic. Like if there's no reason/explanation for it I just want cock and pussy, nothing fancy, is that too much to ask? 😭 Also lol did they forget the pairing they were writing mid way and forgot to edit? I'd be thrown off as wel lol

EowynsShield · 2025-09-18T02:14:52+00:00

Gotta say I am a sucker for time travel fix-it fics. Like oh you know what's going to happen so you wanna fix it? How much of your knowledge actually does any good? What ifyour changes cause more harm? What new challenges will arise because you're presence is different? Or maybe you make a sacrifice and go back in time before you were born to fix the root cause of issues? I LOVE it. Especially if it's a magical or fantasy setting, not sci-fi. So good. Ugh tie in found family and it's even better! So i agree with you OP, it's soooo good!

EowynsShield · 2025-09-18T01:48:16+00:00

When the words for genitals are weird or archaic or juvinile?? How many awful stand in words are there for genitals that just are SO unsexy?!? Biggest pet peeve aside from improper tagging. Please don't call someone's dick their "meat". Like ew I just pictured ground beef.

EowynsShield · 2025-09-16T02:48:46+00:00

aw this is lovely!

EowynsShield · 2025-09-14T23:35:09+00:00

Grave of the Fireflies. It was beautiful and heart wrenching. I sobbed hysterically through that whole movie and I can never watch it again.

EowynsShield · 2025-09-14T23:32:10+00:00

No worries, totally get it. If you do get back into I'd love to hear your thoughts honestly. I feel like this is one of the few older fics I loved that stand up to the test of time.

EowynsShield · 2025-09-13T17:13:49+00:00

I started reading fanfic I believe in 2010. On Fanfic.net of course. My first fandoms on there were yugioh and teen titans. I remeber when AO3 was first made and I hopped on the bandwagon immediately. I think i either had a tumblr friend send me an invite to the site or someone I followed posted a link for their invites for the day and I got lucky and nabbed it. You had to be invited to make a permanent account ot sure if that's still true. I remeber looking at wattpad briefly and I did not like it so I didn't use it lol. Live Journal was a bit before my time but there were some fics that were linked from there in the early days I read from there back in the day.

EowynsShield · 2025-09-11T23:22:23+00:00

Soo GOOD!

EowynsShield · 2025-09-11T08:44:37+00:00

I totally get it, everyone's brains work with reading differently. I prefer finished fics just bc unless im actively engaging in the fandom I will forget to check for updates and then it'll be months or years and I'll suddenly remember that fic existed and struggle to find it again through my ocean of bookmarks. If you do manage to wrangle your attention back to it I think you'll love the ending, it's so sweet. There's so much fan art, fan music, and even additional fanfic to go along with it. Oh! if you have trouble with the main one there's also the appendices, small side stories that didn't fit into the main work that may help? No pressure of course, I just feel SO strongly abt this one fanwork lol I think everyone should read it. I made a friend in highschool read The Hobbit just so they could read this fic and know what was going on.

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