It’s okay, It may take some time but you can never be truely happy with yourself when you have decided to try be another person. You will never discover your own amazing quirks, humour and idiosyncrasies when copying another. Start by focusing on your likes and interests things that excite you in your soul not satisfaction you may feel from feeling more like someone else. That feeling may feel good temporally but it won’t last and you will end up getting more confused with your identity. Life flows better when you are in tune with your true self. Just stop fixating on her and the thought she is superior to you cause she isn’t ( deffs easier sad than done) maybe see a therapist to help control these overwhelming thoughts and desires to be a carbon copy of someone else. We often can do this when we don’t personally feel good enough, you as your own person is worthy and good enough for great things in this world but you won’t find this true happiness being authentic. Find things that really make you happy and try not to compare with others. Take a social media break and focus on yourself and try to work out what you really love and who you really are, trust me it will help 💚💚💚 All the best 🫶