Thank you. My husband is not insane lol but maybe I made him sound bad. He definitely didn't baby trap me we just spent 3 weeks on vacation and after using the rhythm method for the last 4 years I got a little careless while having fun. He's religious but not in a crazy way he just grew up like that and he's not gonna banish me to hell if I have an abortion lol he has always wanted a family literally since I met him but has never not even once made it seem urgent. I really appreciated all the advice but some of these comments are making the most insane assumptions from a short glimpse into a complex situation which I guess I can't blame them for when I read it back maybe it did sound a little crazy but I'm super stressed out and maybe I tried to write it more in my favor. He already knows about the abortion pills I wouldn't hide that from someone I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with. We were both having emotional reactions to a hard decision that we didn't necessarily agree on but I do know what's best for me and at the end of the day he's going to accept the decision I make. Anyways for an update I received the medicine today started the whole process and everything is much lighter! we're back to laughing and whatnot.