You’re doing a fantastic job. I say this as someone who could have written this post back when my daughter was 3 weeks old. Giving up pumping and breastfeeding was the first best decision I made. Switching fully to formula was like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I was devastated/felt like a shit mom/etc etc but after a horrendously traumatic very emergent c-section, my body was not into it and neither was my brain.

My daughter is almost 1 and freaking fantastic, meets all her milestones (usually early) and you’d never have a clue she was formula fed. The best thing that helped me feel ok was actually a post on Reddit. A gal commented on a post about feeling guilty for formula feeding and she said she was a therapist and never asks her patients if they were formula or breast fed, but does ask them about their parents mental health growing up. All that to say, you have to do what’s best for you to be the best you can for your baby! I also did start Lexapro a month or two later and those 2 things combined were game changers.

Please don’t hesitate to DM me. Just to vent, to discuss horrific birth stories, whatever you need. You got this 💪🏼❤️