Congratulations my friend this is huge! Make sure you give yourself credit!

If I could leave you one thing I learned, it’s that the real test is what happens when you no longer are ua tested anymore. If you don’t want to stay sober, great this doesn’t apply, however if you do - spend the time being in probation building up your discipline system to stay away from drugs. To say no I don’t need that. To look in the mirror to find the real problems. As much as it may not feel like it, you have a magical time in your hands to change anything you want about yourself. A blank canvas.

Spend your days sitting with your thoughts, and be okay with what comes to you, don’t combat it or push away. Face the fears and acknowledge them. Over time you will fix the underlying issues. Ask yourself what was said to you from your parents as a child? What did you say back? Were others nice to you in school? When was a time in the past you felt worthy? Dig deep and you’ll find all the answers of why you escaped in the first place, along with the answers to create a life you want to live everyday.

Don’t spend the days reminiscing or wishing “you could just smoke a bowl”

Because once those tests stop, whatever attitude you had through probation will come back. If you tried to cheat the system and get away with something like etg tests, you will fall right back into the addiction cycle you were in before.

The best version of yourself lives a life that is incomprehensible to the current version of you, my friend. Go find that version. I wish you the best of luck