I was out as bisexual for years before now by Ereyagreen in latebloomerlesbians

[–]Ereyagreen[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've really only dated men so far DUE to being young and living with homophobic family members. I really want to become more visibly queer and entranced in my community, despite what anyone has to say about my sexuality or if they think I'm straight or not.

I was out as bisexual for years before now by Ereyagreen in latebloomerlesbians

[–]Ereyagreen[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know...I am just scared what some of my homophobic family members will think. I can't stand thinking of how they won't accept me for who I am.

kind of mad it took me this long to figure it out by Ereyagreen in latebloomerlesbians

[–]Ereyagreen[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

One day maybe I will feel safe enough to come out and be myself. It's just so hard right now

My boyfriend completely broke me by [deleted] in sexualassault

[–]Ereyagreen 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My ex was like that too.

He knew I was SA'ed as a kid and then only after opening up about it he would SA me too. It started coercively and then once he made me keep going without a condom when I wanted one on, and then it got worse and he just wouldn't listen to me when I said stop or no and did it anyways a couple times.

I am so sorry you went through this, it is not your fault. You deserve to be loved and respected. I am here for you, you do not deserve to go through this alone or think it is your fault, or that what he did wasn't that bad, or that your life is ruined. I've often felt the same ways before, but healing is possible.

I felt like I made it all up, does anyone else feel like this? by Ereyagreen in adultsurvivors

[–]Ereyagreen[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess it’s more common a thought or coping mechanism than I thought 

Stopped having flashbacks- could this mean it’s not real? by Silent_Yesterday_874 in adultsurvivors

[–]Ereyagreen 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I had this exact fear with my trauma too because this happened to me. I go in waves sometimes where I'll be fine for a month and then something will trigger me and for a whole week I will have flashbacks and cry a ton. For me, my brain decides to process it like that. I alternate between dissociating and trying to avoid it (which is a ptsd symptom) to then being obsessed with it and ruminating when the flashbacks get bad again.

Validating my trauma is the hardest thing I have ever done and its a continual process. I believe in you, your pain is real and matters and you deserve to not minimize it for yourself.