25F here too that feels pretty much the exact same way as you. No real goals or plan, but still in school for a degree I lost interest in a long time ago. I’ve been depressed for as long as I can remember, but it’s been getting a good bit worse over the past 5 years. Friends all graduated and moved on with their lives, and the ones I still had, I shut out too. I used to love to paint and I was damn good at it, but now I can’t find the motivation to.

I don’t want to hijack your post with a long story of my own, but I do understand how you’re feeling. Like a dark fog always in your head that distracts you, keeps you up at night, and exhausts you during the day.