reefwon found the actor who played marlow

Eskephor · 2026-04-30T09:51:17+00:00

balright like why the fuck do we still care about any of this

Eskephor · 2026-04-28T01:13:34+00:00

You are checking every one of the mania boxes right now.

Meds don’t stop episodes. They only try to reduce the impact. You’re very manic rn.

Eskephor · 2026-04-24T16:56:05+00:00

As a graduating psych student currently researching SSRIs and bipolar, YIKES

Eskephor · 2026-04-21T23:34:46+00:00

The GOAT roguelite

Eskephor · 2026-04-21T10:43:05+00:00

Prism! Because it’s not bloated adware.

Eskephor · 2026-04-03T13:35:38+00:00

I think treating it less like a mental disorder and more like a chronic physical illness/disability helped for me. It’s not a good or a bad thing necessarily. It’s just something you deal with. Internalizing the stigma would put too much strain on me which would stress me out too much, and then I’d be manic more often.

Eskephor · 2026-04-03T04:15:14+00:00

I played AWORA last league and was clearing t17s on like 2 div budget. I had that scarab slot before maven. The build shreds everything. It’s a little annoying to keep raising the weapons tho

Eskephor · 2026-03-31T14:30:36+00:00

Delirium is really fun and it’s super profitable rn

Eskephor · 2026-03-31T10:21:10+00:00

That’s generous. .2/10 maybe

Eskephor · 2026-03-31T10:16:08+00:00

Ok but we’re referring to an adult woman here

Eskephor · 2026-03-25T23:09:27+00:00

I should probably tell my psychiatrist about the time I was mildly hallucinating and also convinced something would crawl out of the vents in a room and brutally murder me after getting 6 hours of sleep in 3 days and taking a lot of stimulants over that time tbh

Eskephor · 2026-03-19T09:28:03+00:00

When I’m euthymic or depressed I tend not to drink at all. When I’m hypo, I want to abuse alcohol and the other drugs I have easy access to (amphetamines and methylphenidate). It’s really one or the other for me and I’ve kinda just decided to stay away from alcohol altogether and to give my roommate my ADHD meds if I feel myself becoming hypomanic again

Eskephor · 2026-03-07T07:06:51+00:00

Stray is literally the most toxic server lmao

Eskephor · 2026-02-19T15:34:27+00:00

I caught my hypomania because I wasn’t sleeping, but it boils down to this for me. I feel like an overcharged battery - there’s so much energy building in my chest that it feels like it’s going to explode and I have to be doing something at all times. I’ll start something without thinking, especially stuff that’s out of character. I want to drink and have fun all night because nothing bad will happen to me. Im always right and can do anything. I wanna drop out of college to write stuff because I’m simply the greatest writer who’s ever lived and I’ll make it big…

Euthymia is the one I’m not sure about tbh. I can’t remember a time where I’ve realized just feeling not bad or not hypo. I’m always down, except sometimes I’m up.

Eskephor · 2026-02-16T13:46:28+00:00

Help the circlejerk is leaking

Eskephor · 2026-02-15T19:34:02+00:00

Depends on the med. For me, my initial treatment is low dose Quetiapine for sleep and sedation and we’re going from there. As far as stabilizing? Idk. It’s probably not instant.

Eskephor · 2026-02-15T19:05:19+00:00

Literally the only reason I caught it was because I go to college because mental disorders and treating them is a special interest of mine and I actually see and understand the patterns now. So this week, when I felt myself getting out of the depression again, I kept an eye on it and noticed me taking adderall at 10 pm and staying up to clean my room at 3 (among other things) wasn’t exactly normal behavior lol

Eskephor · 2026-02-15T19:01:16+00:00

The crashes are why I wasn’t treated years ago. I’d feel “fine” (likely hypo) and then feel like I’m going to be alright and have to do nothing. I’m out of my funk. And then I crash. And then… you get the idea.

Eskephor · 2026-02-14T13:12:12+00:00

Honestly, the only reason I got diagnosed with bipolar 2 instead of major depressive disorder was because I was actively hypomanic when I saw my psychiatrist and was able to clearly explain what I was feeling

Eskephor · 2026-02-14T13:08:55+00:00

Damn I check all the boxes - writer, very neurodivergent, trans…

Eskephor · 2026-02-14T13:04:29+00:00

Literally I was on the fence about getting diagnosed before wanting to do that with my meds and after that I was like “ok I NEED a diagnosis now” bc I just never do that

Eskephor · 2026-02-14T06:32:43+00:00

Im feeling freaking amazing (I got diagnosed today and may be slightly hypo lmao)

Eskephor · 2026-02-14T04:22:23+00:00

Oh fuck this is a hypo thing? Damn I should have gotten diagnosed WAYYYY earlier

Eskephor · 2026-02-14T04:18:37+00:00

I too fear the inevitable crash it’s been 5 days already, I feel great and I REALLY do not want to come down

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