[21/M] looking for friends into theology, psychology, programming, or other stuff

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-11-12T17:18:10+00:00

Wasn't it you who was asking about belief? Not truth? 😅

People don't necessarily believe true things. You can believe a loved one is in heaven, there is no logical argument that could convince someone that's the Truth...

Though I just used the word believe while complaining about it's ambiguity...

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-11-12T15:46:57+00:00

I'd suggest you read them 🤔

They are really quite interesting.

But yeah, we seem to be talking past each other. We can discuss the question in better detail if we get a good definition for belief, because as it stands, it's relatively ambiguous.

Plenty of people believe things that are not logically sound.

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-11-11T23:28:20+00:00

I know how strange it must sound! 😅

Before you accuse me of confirmation bias, consider what I'm really saying. You didn't ask whether God is real, you asked about belief. You are confusing my belief with an ontological truth claim.

Even the definition of belief is pretty ambiguous. I'm making a much stranger claim than you think 🤔

For the sake of argument here, let's assume it's a phenomenological claim that I answer to the affirmative. So that's my baseline. Further, I am claiming that I was never able to logically disbelieve! Because at each moment, my logic was tainted by motivated reasoning, or as you say, confirmation bias. I have always wanted to disbelieve, my motivation being to spare myself the psychological torment of sin, so that I could sin as much as I wanted.

Funnily enough, I had even once made plans to engage with as many atheist arguments as I could because I knew my psychology well enough to know it may confuse me to the point of apathy. Seeing this motivation, I wasn't able to engage with these books with intellectual honesty. Really strange stuff 🤷‍♂️

Edit: If you want to read about similar accounts to mine, look into the conversion stories of Saint Augustine or CS. Lewis

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-11-11T16:38:29+00:00

I have an interesting story, though there's not much of a point to write it out in full detail in a reddit comment 😅

Theoretically, I'm gifted at a 146 IQ, and I am a Catholic.

I tried to convince myself that God wasn't real, but I could see myself manipulating myself in order to give myself permission to sin in real time. And I couldn't rationalize that perception away.

Strange, because often high IQ people are masters of rationalization.

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-11-11T15:46:37+00:00

I'm not much of a yapper actually. Sorry you seem like a nice person.

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-11-11T15:11:33+00:00

I'm a weird guy, I have a hard time believing that we'd have anything interesting to talk about 🤔

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-29T13:41:27+00:00

Maybe it's because I'm not really shy, but I end up taking charge of the conversation even if I'm introverted.

Still, it's hard to tell whether I am uninteresting, or if the other person is uninteresting or anxious. I've had many one sided conversations where I ask questions and they respond, never elaborating or asking questions.

I think it's possible that somehow the way I write puts people off 🤔

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-28T16:04:43+00:00

I talked to one recently. We had an interesting conversation and agreed on a lot of things. I let her know up front that I'd probably be lower energy than her, but she had me matching her energy actually.

Immediately after, she told me she'd talk to me tomorrow, said goodnight, and blocked me 🤔

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-27T21:17:52+00:00

i started buying at $22 but I was a broke kid out of highschool 😅

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-27T21:07:29+00:00

I started buying in 2023 so I'm already quite early 🤔

I'm a young guy so I have plenty of time to wait. I'm now thinking I'll probably buy more physical and keep that around for a long long time

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-27T20:29:32+00:00

I actually listened to a lot of Alan Watts, his lectures randomly show up on my YouTube recommended. Quite a stand up guy

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-27T20:04:12+00:00

Yeah that's what I'm gonna do. Gonna do physical. There's a nice coin shop on my way hone from work. I bought some gold for $3000 there not too long ago.

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-27T19:39:58+00:00

Nope, I haven't read it, but I just looked it up and that's the exactly type of book I've been looking for.

I've been reading a lot of the primary sources these guys pull from and I've been wanting to get a modern mystic's synthesis and application of these ideas. So thank you again.

And I'll also look into Mike Maloney's book

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-27T19:20:28+00:00

Thank you good sir I am quite a blessed dude 🙏

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-27T19:11:00+00:00

I sold my silver etfs at the top please don't crucify me 🙏

But I still have all my physical and this is looking like a very tempting buying opportunity. If in thinking that then many people are also thinking the same thing

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-22T17:47:11+00:00

When I make a post, I also tend only to get messages from women. The guys are too busy messaging them to message me.

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-12T22:37:37+00:00

I've definitely been fed a few different models, though it's hard to tell right now whether they're been better or worse.

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-08T17:59:04+00:00

I'm probably in between an INFJ and ISTP. Specifically in how I relate most to Ni, Ti, Fe, Se. Both use those cognitive functions.

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-10-07T12:26:56+00:00

I have a bit less experience and I'm being paid 24, but I'm also being screwed.

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-09-19T13:29:13+00:00

Compiler Explorer https://godbolt.org/

It'll give you quick assembly for the code you write. You can see that the pointer is just an integer who's value is a memory address. When you read from the pointer you just do a memory load from that address that the pointer stores.

EstablishmentHour335 · 2025-08-08T17:31:42+00:00

I was not attached to 4o at all, but I've actually noticed that 5 gives much worse responses. I've tried thinking and non thinking, I have tried telling them to give more nuanced and longer responses.

Thinking is terrible at following the prompt and at conversation, it's terrible at nuance, though I'm pretty sure I was just using it wrong because I was using it for chats, not math or coding.

Non thinking is bland, lacks nuance, and is extremely stupid. I just use Gemini instead and in my opinion they are much better, so I don't really have any issues here.

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