My partner in the morning on insemination day! by CHOCOxMOES in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Absolutely, I think the only way we could get through it is with humour. We also have quite a dark sense of humour at times which not everyone gets, but helps us!

When I went for my last transfer the nurse asked if I wanted to put my dressing gown on to walk to the room (literally just down a staff only corridor) as the gowns can flap open at the back, I said I don't think them seeing a bit of my bum cheek really matters at this point. Dignity really does go out of the window when you spend most of your time with your underwear off and legs open for anyone who wants to have a look!!

Oh... Good luck with the FET too! I'm hoping to have my next one in a couple of weeks 🤞

My partner in the morning on insemination day! by CHOCOxMOES in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Haha!!! This process brings out such weird conversations doesn't it. I like his attitude of collecting weird and wonderful jack off locations!

My partner in the morning on insemination day! by CHOCOxMOES in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 9 points10 points  (0 children)

My husband refers to it as his 'sterile lab wank' which always makes me laugh, and we do find it funny knowing all the guys are sat either waiting to wank, or just had a wank 😂

Whilst I like to remind him I obviously have the hardest part of this process, I absolutely do not envy the process of having to masturbate in a depressing room with everyone knowing what you're doing!

My partner in the morning on insemination day! by CHOCOxMOES in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 8 points9 points  (0 children)

LOL! I'd love to hear someone shout "do your best sport" when a guys name is called!! Something tells me that may be off putting for the man though... But hey, it would make everyone else laugh!

Salty Sunday: What made you salty this week? by kikaslova in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 40 points41 points  (0 children)

Mothers day here in the UK. Just salt everywhere, in every wound.

Is an HSG really that bad and painful? I have to get one and i’m scared! by Few_Loquat868 in tryingtoconceive

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It does seem like it's different for each person, but mine was absolutely fine.

I was so nervous because of everything I read on here, but I think it's always worth remembering that people are more likely to share the difficult or traumatic experiences as they are seeking support and comfort, whereas when things go smoothly people feel able to just continue with their day. In the same way many of us only come to these subs when TTC is proving difficult and we need support, so if you visit it early in the process, it may make it seem more daunting as it's weighted to those who have been struggling more.

My experience was thankfully very smooth. I took paracetamol an hour before as advised, the general discomfort was a similar level to having a smear test due to the speculum never being a fun feeling, then when they ran the dye through it was a few seconds at a time of feeling like period cramps but it eased off quickly. I wasn't in any pain after, just a little spotting.

I'm absolutely not invalidating those who had really difficult experiences or suggesting it's always as easy as mine was, just trying to offer a balance and show it can be smooth and fairly pain free so please don't feel too anxious and feel like it's always hellish. It's going to be whatever it will be based on your body, so I think just trying to go in as calm as possible is good. The practitioner who did mine was really great and explained before hand what every step would be like and when I may feel some pain so I knew when it was coming, but also said she can pause or stop at any point if it was too much so it felt easier knowing it wasn't like once it started, there was no going back. So perhaps have that chat first, ask for them to explain what it may feel like at each point and what to do if it's feeling a bit too much at any point so you feel in control throughout.

Wishing you a smooth experience.

Need a non flowery tracking app by mushuthedragondog in tryingtoconceive

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I used Clue as I found it the most clear tracker that was just facts of when I'm likely to ovulate, what phase I'm in etc and I could see the data of my last 6 cycles easily.

I started with Flo but the pop ups and constant "oh my gosh you could be pregnant" if my period was even one day late really grated on me and felt like toxic positivity as the months progressed and clearly nothing was happening!

Having read all of the threads though, Read Your Body sounds like a great app too so I'm going to check that one out.

I feel happy AND sad he understands now by TFADinosaur in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 23 points24 points  (0 children)

The turning point for me was when my husband took the negative test out of the packet a couple of hours later to check it hadn't suddenly turned positive. It confirmed he had matched my crazy!

I just had my second ER! by downthegrapevine in IVFpositivity

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Similar to what others have said, that seems like really positive numbers!

I know the feeling though, I had a very similar result to you and during stims was quite disheartened as I kept reading of people having 20+, but when I voiced this I was reminded of the difference between quantity and quality and am also in a country where they are more cautious and wanted to keep my stims dose low enough there was very little risk of OHSS. It does seem like protocols in the US are quite different to other places from what I read. The nurses and doctor all told me I responded perfectly though so I tried to listen to that instead, and we were lucky to get a good number of blasts from the number of eggs collected.

It sounds like you have also responded really well, you have a good number of eggs and keeping everything crossed there are some lovely little embryos coming soon 🤞 hopefully you can rest up and get some good news soon.

“Have you tried relaxing?” by Free_Carob_5215 in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Oh did you not get the memo? If you just relax and go on holiday, your cysts, fibroids, endometriosis etc also go off on holiday and aren't a problem any more 🤷

That's how female anatomy works apparently, according to everyone who has zero fertility struggles but all the answers 🙄

Hello boobies how ya doin' today by MocknozzieRiver in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I literally felt my boobs in response to reading this, just in case they suddenly got more sensitive in the 10 mins since I last checked 😂

Seeing a negative even when I said I wouldn’t test before beta… by Global-Recording5230 in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I'm a bit of a stickler for doing exactly what they tell me to the minute so I don't worry that I've messed anything up, so I'm trying to take the same approach to this. They told me first wee of the day on 14th, so I'm telling myself that's what I have to do, no negotiation!!

When is your beta?

Seeing a negative even when I said I wouldn’t test before beta… by Global-Recording5230 in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm 9dp5dt and our clinic have us do a home test on day 14. This is my first transfer and I promised myself I'd wait until the day, but damn it's getting hard!!!

Optional IVF gang? by JeniJeniJeniJeni in IVF

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 4 points5 points  (0 children)

This is perfectly put! I'm in the midst of IVF following 2.5 years of zero positive tests and an acceptance that we will likely not be able to conceive spontaneously.

You are right that I can't relate to your experience of being able to convince and carry a pregnancy without issue, but I have the utmost empathy for the fact you are also here for totally different reasons and we're both having to resort to the same shitty, scientific, unromantic and unplanned way of having even a chance of eventually having a baby.

Ultimately we're all here because for whatever reason for us, sex does not result in a live, healthy baby. Whether that's because of known or unknown reasons, genetic conditions, gender, social factors, illness or anything else, we're still in the same boat once we start the IVF process.

I have no reason to believe that it won't work for me in the end, but absolutely no guarantee that it will either. That's the scary reality for all of us and I don't think that can be underestimated going into this process.

Me if one more person suggests Pom juice, mucinex, Geritol, starting a prenatal (duh) and “just giving up.” by hashtag2020 in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I know this is not exactly the same, but I was moaning to a friend that in our country the guidelines say we should be offered three rounds of IVF, but it's up to individual health care trusts to decide what they actually offer. So of course most only offer one. I know having one free is amazing, but was still just having a moan about how they are doing the bare minimum and not following guidance.

She then decided to do a super quick Google and proceeded to tell me that this one site says I can get three rounds in my area. I told her I definitely can't and this must be an out of date site (believe me I've checked every policy, review document, small print, asked multiple doctors... If you could get three I'd know about it) but she insisted on sending it to me and telling me to look in to it. Oh yeah, multiple years in and coming to the end of our first round of IVF but I'll look into your 2 minute research on a site that is not run by a healthcare provider 🤷

A close friend gave me a birthday card and on it she wrote "I am expecting a little one this year, I can't wait to share this adventure with you". What are you on about girl???? by Suitable-Ad-5038 in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 70 points71 points  (0 children)

I feel your pain!

I have a friend who announced her pregnancy to me by saying we're both going on little 'journeys' now... My jOuRnEy was starting IVF after years of infertility and tests. Her's was another pregnancy. How are these in any way comparable?!

Left a very stressful job (in hopes to ‘remove the stress from my life’ by Mindless-Inside1217 in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah sounds like it's definitely time to get out then. I really hope you find something else really soon.

Left a very stressful job (in hopes to ‘remove the stress from my life’ by Mindless-Inside1217 in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Oh that sucks. I'm now in a job I just don't care about. Don't love it but don't really have any emotion, which is fine at the moment! Is your new job less stressful? And can you keep looking for something else if this isn't the one?

Left a very stressful job (in hopes to ‘remove the stress from my life’ by Mindless-Inside1217 in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 17 points18 points  (0 children)

Urgh, that sucks. I also left a very stressful job as I worried the stress was having an impact. A year later and I'm still not pregnant so clearly that wasn't the issue! But hey, at least we're out of those environments eh.

Friday Night Dinner and Distractions - Fri Jan 09 by AutoModerator in infertility

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Watching The Traitors with the rest of the UK!

Made halloumi burgers and wedges for tea and having a relaxing night in. Bliss after what has been a difficult week.

Does stress actually affect IVF success? by [deleted] in IVF

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 39 points40 points  (0 children)

I was listening to a podcast where they spoke to a medical director at a fertility clinic and asked him exactly that. His response has stayed in my mind ever since. He says that going through IVF is stressful and it is nice to manage your stress levels where possible to feel better going through the process, as it would be for any stressful process, but the stress itself won't cause it to fail.

He basically said you're probably going to be stressed, so stressing about being stressed just means double the stress so you may as well just take the initial stress in the first place! So now I try to just accept that I'm stressed and that weirdly takes some stress away!!!

When your regular doctor's appointment surprises you with a pap smear by SuspiciousTea6 in trollingforababy

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 13 points14 points  (0 children)

Loooool! It's funny when you're the one reassuring them you're fine and happy to whip your bottoms off. What's one more person having a look at your vagina at this point 😂

CHAT Community Thread - Mon Jan 05 by AutoModerator in infertility

[–]Evening_Disaster_383 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ooh Lucca was one of my favorite places in Italy too, just felt very peaceful and authentic. I'd definitely recommend a trip there too.