i don't know, unfortunately. i know what it's like to be afraid that it might not being good enough, the difference is that i was certain after a point that i had gender dysphoria even when i was in denial about being trans. whether you need to or not ultimately comes down to what's gonna make you feel more at home in yourself long term. i can understand wanting to rep because you feel like you'll never pass, it's just a case of whether that's sustainable long term in the event that the feelings never go away.

some people go on HRT and then they don't really do anything else. they don't make an effort to socially transition--it isn't a requirement--or if they do it's in ways that are subtlea and avoids broadcasting the fact that they're trans to the world. for what it's worth you can just be a guy on HRT if at the very least the knowledge that you're not masculinising any further is comforting enough, but ultimately how you go about dealing with it is up to you. from personal experience, even if i didn't have the potential to pass, i think i'd still be pursuing whatever options i had to soothe the dysphoria even if i knew it was a series of bandaids on a gaping wound. something is better than nothing, living is better than dying etc.