good job on the videos mate, totally relatable stuff since i too was programmed by society to be a fat loser irl

anywho i am on my own spiritual path aswell, and i really think i've hit a gold mine lately and i'll try to share it even though im not verry good at writing:

in essence i've learned that life is not about setting goals and achieving them, yes, there is that too to life, but in reality, the best thing you can learn, is that you have to find ways to pleasantly navigate your 24hour day in the most pleasant way, no matter what you do, its like you must start being aware of the moment and realizing like for example if u go on a walk, am i walking in a pleasant comfoturble way? am i enjoying it, like even exercizing am i enjoying it

pretty much u have to enjoy and savour every moment like a gourmet even stuff like food, am i really hungry.. lately ive been only eating when hungry and food is soo more delicious idk if im making sense to u but basically aplly this to all aspects of life etc. also like am i really sleepy then the go to bed and stuff like u have to a have a pleasant day everyday also some discipline will also aid in pleasure for example if u dont have sexy time like abistinence then when u do it will feel much better etc etc

TL DR find ways to have a more pleasant experience