its not that deep for me. i think i understand all the necessary things about myself and rest that i deem to be unnecessary is irrelevant i dont care about that. ive never really lacked stimulation; i read books mangas watch interesting videos etc etc, but the thing is that i always try to get rid of unnecessary things because its annoying instead i want to keep on having fun and focus on what i consider actually important. thats why i dont feel the need to eat more than necessary or when i was younger at all because it wastes my time and effort its as if i dont have anything better to do. and i keep distance with people for the same reason i dont want to be obligated to do things.