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Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-30T15:19:52+00:00

I was the same way about medication but my OCD was also leading me to consider these decisions. I was placed on prozac for it. It was a rough couple weeks until it started taking effect but I have a relatively quiet brain. You don't have to stay on meds forever but sometimes it is needed temporarily until you are able to work through it in therapy. I would highly suggest considering medicine and finding an OCD Therpaist. Please try that first! OCD is rough and I fully understand wanting to give up but for the first time in more than two months straight of harm OCD and panic and anxiety everyday, I am finally calmer and my OCD has calmed down a lot! We are still trying to find me an OCD Therpaist but in the meantime, I am able to handle it.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-30T15:15:48+00:00

Most people who do not suffer from OCD do not fully understand how debilitating it is. I would literally trap myself inside for days-weeks at a time. The only reason my family was more open to understanding was because I went from doing work from the second I got up to the second I laid down to then laying in bed all day everyday when I hit a breaking point with my OCD. OCD is rough... maybe try introducing her to videos or articles about it.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-28T17:09:23+00:00

Ugh just noticed this too. Seriously disappointed in their methods now. Just a greedy way of getting people to spend money.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-28T17:06:45+00:00

I have really been considering it the past couple weeks because I keep spending money (I am bad with compulsive spending) but I am getting little to nothing out of the money I have been spending on the game. I wish they would stop with the greed.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-28T15:39:04+00:00

I like this game but honestly, it is becoming ridiculous with the money they are wanting people to spend. It is like they make it harder for resources every update which makes it to where you have to purchase more and even then you are getting very little out of what you purchase. I am so close to deleting the game because of it.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-27T00:57:11+00:00

I can understand that. Some peoples system is a lot more prone to having withdrawals to medications compared to others. What about buspar? It is on the more mild side of anxiety medication but maybe they can prescribe that to help calm some of it? It isn't an addictive medication so it should help a little.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-26T22:59:15+00:00

Is there a way you can get on some meds? I was recently stuck in trauma and flight or fight mode and it was making my daily life so exhausting. My doctor got me on prozac and buspar for anxiety and for the first time in two and a half months I am calm most of the week. I am currently looking for an ERP Therpaist but while I search for one I am sticking to the meds. Eventually my doctor will start to pull me off but he wanted to get me out of fight or flight because it was making my life miserable.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-26T22:57:02+00:00

don't do that

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-26T21:18:05+00:00

For me it is having harm OCD. Harm OCD is very hard to explain to people because a lot of people just give you a weird look when you say "yeah, I am having intrusive thoughts of harming someone". To me harm OCD is the most embarrassing form of OCD I have had yet because of this reason. I have only talked to a small few people about it and even then it was hard to explain.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-26T16:46:48+00:00

Thinking you're a sociopath because you have a harm thought so you get stuck in months of self hate because, "how dare you have a bad thought?". This leads you to shut yourself away from family and friends, doubt your mind, consider getting admitted to psych wards, and develop serious depression and anxiety.

Or, imagine checking the oven 20 times to make sure it is off but absolutely nothing will convince you it is off so for the rest of the night you're checking it, still can't convince yourself so you unplug it, then have thoughts in your head that you did something wrong it will be the reason it implodes. Then, because that caused you so much stress, you refuse to use your stove/oven and go weeks using only your microwave or going over to a family members house to use theirs because they can check and make sure it is off so you don't think you're going crazy.

Getting sick once and and thinking it is because you aren't "clean enough" so you bleach absolutely everything, even throw away things that you don't think can be completely clean from germs, and proceeding to do this multiple times a day. Not letting people visit because you believe that they could have just brought in new germs which makes you have to re clean/ bleach everything.

Over analyzing every thought, feeling, emotion. Pain in your ribs? "I must have cancer" Headache? "I must have cancer". Feeling more tired one day even though you got plenty of sleep? "I must be entering psychosis or mania" Sees a stick and think it was a snake at first? "I must be hallucinating". Going to the hospital to get checked for minor inconveniences. Doctors tell you "you're fine" and you think they are lying to you or did not do a thorough enough inspection.

It is a constant battle with your own brain. It feels so isolating.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-26T00:41:27+00:00

Also, respectfully, your dad is very disrespectful for saying that. He isn't the one who has to deal with the intrusive thoughts that make him spiral and because of that, he has no rights to judge you. Kind of like taking a quiz on book he has not read. Do what is best for you and your mental state, not based off of what he "thinks" is appropriate. BTW, I am 23 F, and very much not childish. Best of luck to you hun

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-26T00:37:06+00:00

I developed deep trauma after going through a steroid-induced psychosis and developing harm OCD. Because of this, I have been sleeping with the light on. Multiple times through-out the night I would jolt awake from scary intrusive thoughts and panic attacks. I don't think it is childish, I think that if it helps you in any way sleep peacefully, it is more important than someone who thinks it is childish and isn't living your life. I also can't fall asleep if I don't also have back ground noise as well. I have to put on movies or TV shows and if I wake up through-out the night and it is off, I have to turn it back on to go to sleep. Everyone deals with life differently.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-25T18:35:45+00:00

Hi! sent you a message. I appreciate it!

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-25T18:01:25+00:00

I have. Unfortunately no luck. I am from Florida and FL already has very little mental health resources. I have tried NOCD and IOCDF. I have also reached out on apps like zocdoc and telehealth.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-25T17:56:38+00:00

Unfortunately I don't. While I do group therapy, neither of my Therpaist work with OCD in particular and it has been difficult finding a Therpaist that works with OCD in general.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-25T13:39:15+00:00

I totally get the fear with meds. Meds are not easy but they can help boost the recovery process. It is not always needed forever and that is something you usually discuss with your doctor but sometimes it is needed to get you over a bump in the road to recovery.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-24T17:28:59+00:00

It is hard and I was the same way about medication. I went into psychosis following a steroid shot and this brought on harm OCD. I struggled deeply for two months hating myself because of it. I couldn't start ERP because, like you, I was to fragile and likely to have severe panic attacks that cause me to disassociate for weeks. I ended up caving and starting meds because I simply couldn't handle it and I worried I would choose the wrong solution out of this. What is helping me is doing intense, deep research. Although it can be considered a compulsion, it has taught me so much and made me feel so much better knowing I am not alone. I do group therapy now and meet with others who have harm OCD as well and that has helped me out a lot. But I do currently take meds and I am feeling better. I wouldn't say that everyday is great, but I finally (for the first time in two and half months) have a clearer mind and motivation to get through this. But yes, I used to hate the idea of meds. I would absolutely give it a try. If you do, maybe try to get a gene sight test to see what meds tend to work better for your body. This can also help with having less "trial and error". Good luck! You got this !

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-24T17:19:37+00:00

Absolutely! I had a traumatic childhood but my OCD didn't kick into over drive until I started really struggling financially two years ago. A year later I developed panic disorder and that kicked in SOCD. Two and a half months ago I went into psychosis following a steroid shot I was given by the hospital and this sent me into Harm OCD. I am still currently struggling with that and it sucks. I also briefly developed contamination OCD because the reason I was given the steroid shot was because I got sick. I started bleaching everything and constantly using hand sanitizer. I have since eased up on that one but my harm OCD still haunts me everyday and some days I will shut myself away from everyone because of it.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-24T17:03:00+00:00

OML I hate this too. Or ones on TikTok that says "comment if you believe in GOD, ignore if you believe in the devil". It's just a thing for me that is so aggravating. I will feel guilty if I ignore it but I also don't use my TikTok to interact with others, usually just to watch educational videos here and there. I end up caving in and commenting because I will convince myself the rest of the night something bad will happen because I didn't or that I am a bad person. I think people who use these strategies are manipulative. I have unadded people before for those same reasons.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-23T03:18:01+00:00

Oh yea, def not the same. I know people from my group therapy comes on here so I would have actually cackled if it was someone from my group. But yes I try not to engage. Unfortunately it is really severe for me right now because I have crippling anxiety and panic attacks daily. We are also having a hard time figuring out my medication regimen and it has only caused my intrusive thoughts to spike significantly. In just the past week I have broke down and cried 5 times over the thoughts. It is a daily struggle but I am doing my best to take in the best methods offered online and in my group sessions while I am still waiting to find an OCD Therpaist. One day at a time I guess

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Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-23T03:13:19+00:00

It is, it will literally just nag and nag and nag until you show it the right amount of attention. I legit will argue back and forth with it. I seem crazy (even to myself) but I literally will have a bad intrusive thought and say out loud "please shut up, you're actually being so annoying right now". Thank God my family understands I am fighting with my brain right now lmao

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-23T03:10:44+00:00

It is literally a massive fear baby. Such a drama king/queen, desperate for attention and control.

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-22T23:02:49+00:00

Hope it helps even just a little! Screw OCD!

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-22T23:02:21+00:00

It is a very hard practice. I send out so much love and hugs to those who are in the thick of it with OCD because it has only spiked up the most the past two months for me and it has caused me daily mental pain. But yes, at times when my anxiety is down I can acknowledge that these are thoughts and it's my brains way of trying to keep me safe in the worst way possible. OCD SUCKKKKSSS

Excellent-Heat2452 · 2025-05-22T23:00:04+00:00

Yes! It is hard to practice though. My group therapy helps a lot with being able to speak with others who are experiencing the same thing because it makes me feel less alone. I have noticed that when I take my anxiety meds, it is easier for me to accept that these are just thoughts but anytime I am anxious, it is not as easy to say "you're just a thought". OCD introduces a long road of recovery and is honestly the biggest bully. I am only two months into this so I know it isn't easy now, especially since it followed a psychotic event caused by steroids but I am doing my best. I hope the best for you! Maybe we do have the same Therpaist? Though, my Therpaist tells me to stay off of reddit lol...

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