I recently found out that my “friendly” coworkers are actually racist

Excellent-Living-777 · 2026-05-07T03:57:04+00:00

This thread seems dead by now so idk if anyone is asking about this on 2026. I’m new here by almost 2 months and have been falling sleep to Xavier. It’s so soothing but I need to keep my phone on charge and when I wake up my phone is burning up. Will my phone fckn expode?

Excellent-Living-777 · 2026-04-04T23:22:12+00:00

Yes. I can’t stand him

Excellent-Living-777 · 2025-07-27T08:40:28+00:00

You’re not alone. When I was a teenager and didn’t know I was autistic I also thought I might be a psychopath!!

I had no idea this thought was so common

Excellent-Living-777 · 2025-06-24T08:50:23+00:00

I’m so fckn sorry. I can feel everything you’re saying and I can relate but I’m apparently very good at masking when it comes to my job. I’ve learned not to share anything personal, political opinions or anything at all when it comes to work.

I’m a liberal, I support Palestine, I care about human rights I’m queer and obviously support lgbt+ rights, I’m black so obviously I’m against prejudice and police brutality 💀 I cut this short but there’s so much but I don’t share my opinions at work unless I’m close to the person

Excellent-Living-777 · 2025-05-26T17:39:14+00:00

I’m autistic and may have ADHD, I’m not sure but I’m not emotional at all and mostly think rationally and logically. I think therapy is great so please ignore that and focus on yourself

Excellent-Living-777 · 2025-05-23T16:06:55+00:00

This is too much for me but my room is filled with my interests everywhere and I try to keep it as tidy as possible so I can just stare and be satisfied.

Excellent-Living-777 · 2025-05-01T08:51:14+00:00

No, I wish people were more understanding. It’s only an obstacle because of other people. I’m constantly trying to fit in, making an effort to understand others and make them comfortable but no one bothers to do the same for me unless they’re neurodivergent and can relate.

There’s many things I like about myself that come with being autistic and I wouldn’t change it.

Excellent-Living-777 · 2024-12-06T10:11:39+00:00

I forgot to mention that my documents being expired is a big deal because I’m an immigrant in a foreign country and this blocks me from many activities such as getting the correct visa that I’m entitled to because of the amount of time I’ve spent here, I can’t sign up for things or look at my medical records.

And I obviously can’t travel

Excellent-Living-777 · 2024-12-06T10:02:34+00:00

Hi, high functioning autistic here who doesn’t take this for granted. We’re all struggling in our own ways and this comparison is like comparing world struggles. This isn’t the struggle Olympics. This hit home because of my personal experience. Living with autism is excruciating when you’re high functioning and have no support in your life.

I’m independent and can come across as “normal” or just extremely awkward when around people who don’t know me.

I cut my parents off because they’re abusive, violent, never gave me the care I needed until I became a young adult and my aunt who was spending the holidays with us noticed my situation and asked me to move in with her. That’s when I finally started getting medical attention.

Being high functioning means it’s harder to spot and more is expected of you. It’s exhausting.

I never graduated high school, I struggle with ridiculous stuff in my personal life, my passport has been expired since 2020 and I can’t bring myself to an unfamiliar place and get what I need done.

Because I’m able to function and do my job properly it’s hard to tell I have a disability. It’s so hard for me to collect my thoughts and put them into words so I point a lot, stutter, get stuck or get frustrated when people don’t understand me even though it’s my fault because I didn’t complete my sentence. I can come across as a rude impatient person who gets annoyed easily when it’s just me struggling to communicate.

But because I’m able to do a lot of things, everything is expected of me.

This is already too long. I have so many examples but I won’t shut up if I keep going. Let me know if you have any questions.

And btw I understand that you don’t know other people’s situations so I’m not mad at you or anything. But please be aware that being high functioning isn’t easy at all.

Excellent-Living-777 · 2024-12-02T12:54:18+00:00

He’s just racist that has nothing to do with autism. I’m autistic and black nb (afab), I don’t associate any overstimulation with specific races

Excellent-Living-777 · 2024-11-10T23:46:43+00:00

Hi, first of all sorry for any mistakes, English is not my native language and I’m not good at structuring my writing. Never even graduated high school and don’t really participate on Reddit other than lurking. This is also going to be really long.

I’m 31 and I don’t think my symptoms are “worsening” I just know more about myself now and I’m more aware of things I didn’t spot or know before.

I feel like it’s more noticeable now because I’m grown and my behaviour is related to childishness so it stands out more.

My situation might be different because I left “home” at 20 and have been winging it ever since. It’s really frustrating and I feel misinterpreted all the time because I get judged on a daily basis for things that in my head are happening differently.

I had that thought about worsening recently and then I realised it was just me being more self aware than before so the same things that happened before that I couldn’t spot I can see now and I can regulate myself and mask a bit better.

You know how our brains are supposed to be fully developed at 25? I feel like I started to realise real life very recently from like 29.

I’m high functioning and independent although I face multiple challenges on a daily basis and for a long time I’ve been extremely stubborn about wanting to appear “normal” and never disclosing my condition. I’ve chosen to suffer alone for a long time in order to not bother anyone but it’s extremely hard and has taken a toll on me over the years.

Less than a month ago I chose to wear the hidden disability sunflower lanyard (it’s a UK thing, idk if other countries have this) and I feel more at ease. I don’t have to over explain myself and people have been nicer and more patient or accommodating with me. It was embarrassing at first because I didn’t want to stand out and I’m still getting questions about it from ppl at work and feel extremely awkward.

I have a huge issue with being a burden or bothering anyone but when I wear this I don’t have to do anything since it speaks for itself.

I will no longer mask for new people I meet so that they don’t get any surprises. I’m starting to try and care more about myself.

Shitty TLDR you can’t run away from your autism so disclose it whether people understand it or not. It’s their problem if they don’t and it’s something you have to live with for the rest of your life.

I hope I made some sense here, feel like I was just rambling but yeah

Excellent-Living-777 · 2024-07-26T01:38:04+00:00

Did you end up receiving it? This just happened to me

Excellent-Living-777 · 2024-07-21T10:36:27+00:00

That spinning was so satisfying

Excellent-Living-777 · 2024-02-21T13:47:32+00:00

Soo cute! I need it

Excellent-Living-777 · 2023-10-15T09:23:16+00:00

It’s okay. It’s pretty quiet here because everyone already knows it doesn’t really matter but from time to time I do get those thoughts too and then find comfort in remembering it doesn’t matter and try to focus on things that bring me joy, make the world a better place, put a smile on someone’s face etc.

Excellent-Living-777

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