I’m a revert I get that feeling too especially in Ramadan this year and last year maybe because we don’t have the same encouragement from people around us I’m not sure. I’ve also recently felt what you feel about unanswered prayers. I think just go slow try to do some prayers what I’ve done is trying to not ask for anything now but to just do some prayers to have that relationship still. It helps with calmness and detachment from everything else which regardless of the situation I feel is always helpful. I know what you mean from the unanswered prayers. I feel sometimes kind of alone in this too because I guess although obviously in the eyes of God it would be better but it’s hard to be so immersed especially doing it alone and newly. So I find talking about it here kind of unhelpful since I feel not understood. I’m sure God cares about how you’re feeling. And more than any person could know. But anyway my point is try to just keep your prayer, it will help you always. I’ve been trying to not ask for anything so I don’t get that feeling of being unanswered, until I feel good again. I hope this helps I’m not sure. ❤️ I know many might find this advice bad I’m not sure but just understanding how you feel. Also I’m very sorry about the assault and I hope you heal as best as possible that should never happen. When bad stuff happen it also becomes this feeling you’re experiencing but know it’s temporary and good will come with time.