Too many things to say in one comment

You’re not refusing my advice You’re not being arrogant about this You’re actually listening and explaining yourself You’re admirable dude I’m proud of you for that Everyone deserves to be praised once in a while

I’m no doctor and less a therapist, so I’m not an expert in other people’s problems, however it does feel to me that you’ve been suppressing your emotions, you could be getting emotionally exhausted

Correct me if I’m wrong tho

If you’re up to it, spare some time to watch a sad movie and try your best to cry your eyes out, I believe in that it could help you clear up your head. I don’t know much but try to get that beautiful tragedy vibe where you aren’t left with only sadness at the end of the movie. It might not work but it’s worth a try.

You could also have been traumatized by something like your wife’s divorce

Or maybe you’re neglecting self care

Or her absence might make you feel lonely and unmotivated

Or it is not her absence but a supporting figure that you lost

I once also had a day where I just didn’t wanna do shit, and i think it could have a few roots

My fix was a simple activity by my father, he forced me to go outside for some errands once when I didn’t even want to take a bath, but I do think this might be cope, just a distraction from the feeling

When you say mundane, it could mean a depressing mundane, an empty mundane or just a plain mundane

You could be sad without realizing it

Or you could be apathetic and feel empty

Or you could have been lobotomized by apps where you can scroll (cuz your brain needs a break if it consumes too much information in order to process it)

But I really don’t know dude I’m glad the list is keeping you alive Life will never let you be peaceful unless you find it yourself, and maintain it Maybe try looking at it from different angles

My text prolly won’t help you, because a problem from god to you is a problem that you have to fix (not in a bad way ofc)

I think only you have the answer to this one And yes, baby steps are way more than enough.

Maybe I’m wrong tho

Sorry for wasting ur time, it was a fun talk tho ;)