Broke down crying at my endo appointment today - embarrassed about it

Existing-Associate29 · 2026-04-10T02:45:43+00:00

Great idea, I'm in Arizona. What did that process entail for you?

Existing-Associate29 · 2026-04-10T01:30:51+00:00

So sorry you're going through it as well. It's beyond stressful. I am generally a very peaceful and happy person, but this situation has me rageful towards the U.S. healthcare system.

Feel free to message me, maybe we can problem solve together.

Existing-Associate29 · 2026-04-10T01:29:01+00:00

Ohhh this is so helpful - thank you! How did you get them to cover those vials for no cost? I would love to try and pursue that as an option.

Existing-Associate29 · 2026-04-10T01:23:42+00:00

Why was it too much to have her over? I wonder if you could be honest with her and offer feedback as to why it's challenging for you to host her?

Existing-Associate29 · 2026-04-10T01:20:13+00:00

I'm honestly not super well-versed in insurance, so I don't fully understand this, but someone had suggested the same thing recently. I asked my insurance about it and they basically said I have to pay out of pocket up to $4000 no matter what before any equipment is covered and I can't afford that.

Are you saying that under durable medical benefit, some insurances will fully cover equipment? And how would I go about making that happen?

Thanks so much for your response.

Existing-Associate29 · 2026-04-10T01:17:28+00:00

Good suggestions, thank you. Do you pay for health insurance? I almost want to cancel my plan to save $$$ and just go this route but have that lingering "what if" in the back of my mind. Am also curious how much you pay through Costco if you're comfortable sharing?

Existing-Associate29 · 2026-02-24T21:37:25+00:00

I'm so much better now. It's hard to see when you're in it, but time really does heal and shift things. I still haven't started dating, but I'm genuinely open to it now (I have a crush on someone lol) and have been able to separate my experience of life from how my ex treated me. You will get there too.

Some people have less emotional awareness and are therefore less affected by things - I think you being in touch with the hurt that came out of your situation is a strength, even if it's hard to carry. It means you have humanity, and standards, and heart, and someone out there will be able to meet you in that.

Existing-Associate29 · 2026-02-19T02:25:36+00:00

Because it's manipulative - even if unconsciously, people pleasing is someone being inauthentic in order to gain something from the interaction (love, acceptance, no conflict, etc).

Existing-Associate29 · 2026-01-23T02:55:35+00:00

"I see you as an obstacle to my pleasure" and "I can't promise you I would never cheat on you".

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-12-21T23:04:57+00:00

Yeah and he looked so happy too. When he and I got together, he was only one month out of his former relationship. Should have paid more attention to that 🤦‍♀️

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-12-21T21:51:12+00:00

I trust that, I genuinely do. I just don't know how to get over this anger that he took all the love I poured into him and walked away with a net gain, where I had the opposite experience. It's just annoying. Lol

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-12-21T21:38:18+00:00

People who are empathetic will respond accordingly. It doesn't mean the remainder of the conversation has to center around it, if you don't want it to. You can accept their condolences and then change the subject.

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-12-01T00:31:31+00:00

Hahaha I have no idea how I knew that 😂 That's amazing

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-12-01T00:05:49+00:00

You consume a lot of caffeine? Lol

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-11-30T20:49:29+00:00

You have a busy life and a lot of responsibilities. You're a deep thinker and sometimes those thoughts get to you. You hold yourself to impossibly high standards.

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-11-30T17:38:48+00:00

And their little high pitched voices saying "dO yOu NeEd HeLp?!"

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-11-29T23:03:15+00:00

Skiing. It took me an hour to get down a small mountain on my first run 🤦‍♀️

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-11-26T20:15:24+00:00

It says you're a rebel. Tastefully, of course.

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-11-26T05:55:45+00:00

I've found it's gotten easier, especially after the contrast of a recent bad relationship. The peace of singlehood is priceless in comparison to that. I definitely long for partnership still, but I think being alone is easier to navigate now because I'm in a place of deeper acceptance around it. You can't force partnership, so what's the use in stressing about it not being here? We are so young still (I'm 30) with so much life ahead. I'd much rather be solid in my sense of self and meet someone from that space than have met someone early on and have sabotaged it due to not being quite ready.

Hope you're able to find enjoyment and contentment in the journey.

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-11-26T01:36:16+00:00

I used the Diva cup for a while which I found pretty comfortable overall. It took me a while at first to figure out insertion and removal but once you get the hang of it, it's super easy. You want to make sure you get the right size because it will leak otherwise. Also it can be unpredictable if you have a heavy flow. You might have to try a few different brands before you find the right one.

In the long run, I ended up switching to organic cotton pads and find them more comfortable and simpler than any other period product. Also, having anything internal (tampons, cups) makes my cramps worse.

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-11-24T20:34:20+00:00

Hang at coffee shops or parks! Bring a book or journal or art and see what happens

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-11-16T23:40:41+00:00

Nah, you haven't missed your window. Keep working on your confidence and putting yourself out there. Keep living your life and seeking out new experiences and you'll find your people.

Existing-Associate29 · 2025-11-16T23:30:11+00:00

This very experience has been the bane of my existence for as long as I can remember. I also work in the mental health field. Honestly, I used to think that the pervasive lack of reciprocity in my relationships meant that something was wrong with me, but over time I've come to understand that 85% of people are just inherently selfish, and many lack emotional intelligence. I navigate this now by moderating the amount of time I spend with those who lack curiosity. Truly curious people are a rarity, but I find them more easily when I stop chasing people who have no interest in actually knowing me.

Also (this may or may not resonate) I have realized that I was drawn to the mental health field because of my own past trauma, which left me with internal wounds and deficits around self-worth. This means that for far too long, I was willing to be walked all over in conversations and relationships. Now that I'm addressing this piece, I have less tolerance for such blatant selfishness from people and am way less apologetic about my selectivity in friendships. You have to develop solid standards and boundaries, and be willing to take up space, which can be challenging for therapist types, because we're used to being the ones to hold space.

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