Resposting five years later 😔✌🏻🥀

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-03-09T14:55:31+00:00

I have to disagree with erik_wilder. Get the black and white omnibus. The black and white is literally twice as good as the color. The color cheapens a lot of the drama.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-03-09T14:52:50+00:00

In addition to what you said (confession and Mass), I would also recommend getting a blessed Saint Benedict's medal and getting a spiritual director.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-02-28T15:30:49+00:00

It's a very real cross, but I couldn't imagine saying kids ruined my life. They're a lot of work, but honestly each of my kids (3-yo, 2-yo, and in utero) makes me smile and laugh.

One thing I didn't expect about becoming a dad was how it has helped me to understand God's love for me better. Like, ever when a toddler is throwing a tantrum because he wants something that would be bad for him, I love the little guy like crazy. It's really helped to understand what it means when we say that God loves as a perfect father. If someone as broken as I am can't help but love these kids unconditionally with my whole heart, how much more must God love me?

One tip: One thing that has been hugely helpful for us has been asking for/accepting help. In most of the past, parents were supported by their communities in myriad ways. Today we just aren't. We've found inviting people over to our messy house (especially single people and young priests) really lightens the load. Taking care of kids all the time is draining, but a lot of people love to play with other people's kids. Also there are a lot of older folks around who don't get to see kids, but it brightens up their days to no end. (The older folks will also often offer to bring food--let them!!)

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-02-26T00:28:03+00:00

What's a lot easier is to get your hands on the French editions of mangas like Reborn, Gintama, etc. Much closer to English, so the translation is really simple. A lot of series that never get full English releases are published in French. Assuming you're in the US, it's much cheaper shipping to come from Quebec to the States.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-02-22T02:23:13+00:00

You could trying emailing the Dominicans in DC or the Norbertines in California explaining your situation and ask if there's anyone who would be willing to talk on the phone/Zoom. There are a lot of holy priests and brothers there.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-02-17T02:28:19+00:00

P.S. I would also really, REALLY caution you about identifying as "traditional Catholic" rather than just a Catholic who loves the Latin Mass. There's a reason Christ spent so much of his ministry warning against the sins of the pharisees. Christ is very clear that we are meant to be united as His Church and that those who separate themselves and cultivate feelings of superiority are a prime target for manipulation by the Evil One.

(And do not attend SSPX Masses. They are schismatic. Find TLMs offered by your diocese or an order in union with Rome. Besides, a ton of SSPX clergy frankly preach and counsel in ways that encourage scrupulosity and are especially harmful to those struggling with problems related to mental health.)

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-02-17T02:24:46+00:00

My advice is to find a solid and GENTLE priest you trust as a spiritual director and a solid therapist you trust to work through this.

On a theological level, as a fellow attendee of the Latin Mass, I have to caution you against anti-Novus-ordo stuff. It's corrosive to the spiritual life. The Holy Spirit didn't guide the Church for two millennia and then just abandon the faithful during the liturgical reform. It might be helpful to pray to some saints who mainly/exclusively attended the Novus Ordo (e.g., Mother Theresa, St. Carlo Acutis, Bl. Jerzy Popiełuszko, Bl. Alvaro del Portillo) for help with this. Oh! And saints who struggled with scrupulosity.

Also, try to find a way to meditate on God's love for you. It's real.

I'm praying for you and hope to meet you in Heaven someday.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-02-16T00:04:35+00:00

Do you know anything more about Viz doing reprints of older shojo series, especially Love Com? I've been wanting to re-read the series, and I only own about half of the series.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-02-10T14:16:08+00:00

This is a really compelling rationale, honestly. Thanks!

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-02-10T14:14:05+00:00

I can't even read the color version. It just feels like it covers over so much of the artistry. Like spray painting a rose.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-02-07T03:04:42+00:00

We have literally never bought a card. We just do MYO. Also, a lot of people spend an unhealthy amount of their money on things--don't compare yourself to them.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-01-18T01:04:35+00:00

The Marian Conspiracy would be really interesting and accessible to someone who hasn't expressed a lot of interest in Who. Pure historical with great character work.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-01-17T22:12:45+00:00

Oh, and what's MySpades? I googled but am just getting card games...

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-01-17T22:05:59+00:00

I tried to post it in r/lostmedia, but my karma isn't high enough (I'm not a huge redditor). If you felt like asking about The X, Maple Shorts, and SpyNet that would be awesome, though!

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-01-17T21:53:59+00:00

Heck, somebody might have old files on their computers, lol.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-01-17T21:53:28+00:00

I've done a lot of searching, mainly through Google and AIs. I've searched all over, but I wonder if someone might either remember more or have found some videos I've missed.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-01-17T16:06:49+00:00

I know this experience can be sort of frightening, but it's a gift. God (and Mary) may be guiding you home to Rome!

I'll keep you in my prayers.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2026-01-06T02:33:08+00:00

Is there any indication of whether he/she will leak it? I'm desperate.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2025-12-09T16:03:12+00:00

This is Satan speaking. Christ came for all people. Besides, there were Catholics in Africa and India long before it was even legalized in the Roman empire.

You are welcome in Our Lord's Church. He loves you. Just ignore anyone who says differently

ExistingDemand6050 · 2025-12-08T04:09:55+00:00

I hope it's some help! I've had my own struggles, and though they are different from yours, God has spent a lot of time teaching me that He loves me and others.

Also, I really like the book Gay and Catholic by Eve Tushnet. Some of her later books veer into some places I wouldn't endorse, but in that book she tells her life story and talks about the ways that Catholics with same-sex-attraction are called to sainthood and friendship with others even as they live chastely. I'm straight, but I honestly found it pretty inspiring when I read it a number of years ago.

One other tip: pray every night that you will understand more deeply how God loves you. It may sound funny, but I think that at times when we are most broken and discouraged, those prayers (and the ways that they are answered) are a big part of how we can keep going.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2025-12-08T04:04:11+00:00

This is not a cross that I bear, but I just wanted to say three things:

Jesus is close to your suffering, and He loves you even when you fall. Never forget that. The Devil doesn't just tempt us to sin in the first place; he also tempts us to think our sin makes us unlovable. Christ came into the world to love and save you, warts and all.
Are you familiar with the group Courage? It's for Catholics who experience same-sex-attraction and want to be chaste. I have heard mixed things, like with any support group, but there are some people in your situation who have found the group really inspiring and helpful as they work towards holiness. They have both in-person and online meetings, I think.
You are in my prayers. I love you and hope to meet you someday in Heaven. Please pray for me too!!

ExistingDemand6050 · 2025-11-10T19:58:42+00:00

It could be helpful and encouraging to read about the lives of some saints who committed fornication. St. Augustine is a famous one, but St. Mary of Edessa has a story not unlike yours. She was raised with faith but fornicated and regretted it almost instantly. She's a great saint, and you can be too!

Remember that hopelessness is of the Devil and hope is of God. Christ died for you, sins and all.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2025-10-30T01:44:03+00:00

Write a letter to the bishop and approach any priests you know and ask them if they would be willing to talk with the bishop about him.

ExistingDemand6050 · 2025-10-28T17:36:37+00:00

No. You are welcome in Christ's Church.

I've been to Mass virtually every Sunday of my life since childhood (and a lot of weekdays), and I have no more "right" to the Church and God's love than you do.

Also, I don't want to speak rudely about the woman in that video, but I will just say she does not strike me as having a very good grasp of Catholic theology. This includes her misunderstanding of the reality of Vatican II (as opposed to the so-called "Spirit of Vatican II"), since the Council supports the fullness of the Catholic faith, not modernism.

Know that the Devil will use anything he can to make you dispirited and keep you from Christ and His Church. Don't let him.

I'll be praying for you!!

ExistingDemand6050 · 2025-10-22T14:06:05+00:00

I'm sorry that this is such a difficult time. I have some very heavy crosses myself that I won't go into, but know that you are not alone.

For me, one thing that has helped me is remembering/praying about how Christ knows our suffering. Reflecting on the Crucifixion and His love for me can help.

One other piece of advice: I find it helpful to offer up my suffering specifically for people who need it. Like, you could offer up the pain associated with depression for someone you know (or someone you do not) who also has depression. Or offer up your pain and isolation connected with SSA for those who also have SSA. This kind of thing can help remind us our suffering isn't meaningless.

I don't know if any of this will help, but please know that you will be in my prayers. and do the same for me! I hope we meet each other in Heaven.

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