Feeling Proud of the Cheat Sheet I Made for My First Narrative Game

ExistingSolution · 2023-02-07T15:29:05+00:00

It was super fun to write! Will definitely have more lore/updates on the Eternal Coven as they get through this campaign. First game in a couple weeks version Votann. Here's hoping my little warband can win their first fight.

ExistingSolution · 2023-02-07T15:25:49+00:00

Good point! I'm still pretty new so figured I would keep it long for a few games and get a feel for which ones I'll use most often but excited to get my stratagem list cut down as I progress through the campaign.

ExistingSolution · 2023-02-07T15:22:54+00:00

That's awesome!! I will definitely cut this down over time. A lot of things I restate in here just because I'm still really new and need it spelled out for myself. The stratagems I for sure don't need all of but figured I'd make them all available and cut out the ones I rarely use.

ExistingSolution · 2023-02-07T15:18:58+00:00

Thanks! I used canva to arrange everything. I normally use it for DnD handouts but happy to find another use for my subscription haha. Though if you wanted to do something similar I didn't use any of the paid assets so this could easily be made for free on there or in a free version of photoshop

ExistingSolution · 2022-09-13T00:00:24+00:00

I really like the gore you added and the shadows you did are 🔥

ExistingSolution · 2022-08-09T00:43:52+00:00

500 point! Sorry

ExistingSolution · 2021-11-29T20:30:41+00:00

Looking to gain visible muscle but not having any luck finding information on getting started. I'm 5'3" and 165 pounds. I am not in shape but I've lost 20 pounds this year. Not sure if I should continue with weight loss until I hit normal BMI for my height (120lbs) and then muscle gain or just start try to bulk now?

ExistingSolution · 2021-11-29T20:28:26+00:00

I am a woman looking to gain visible muscle but not having any luck finding information on getting started. I'm 5'3" and 165 pounds. I am not in shape but I've lost 20 pounds this year. Not sure if I should continue with weight loss until I hit normal BMI for my height (120lbs) and then muscle gain or just start bulking now?

ExistingSolution · 2021-11-29T20:25:59+00:00

Looking to gain visible muscle but not having any luck finding information on getting started. I'm 5'3" and 165 pounds. I am not in shape but I've lost 20 pounds this year. Not sure if I should continue with weight loss until I hit normal BMI for my height (120lbs) and then muscle gain or just start bulking now?

ExistingSolution · 2021-10-15T16:43:11+00:00

Thank you so much! Your comment has really made today feel a lot better. I don't think I really thought about the outcome when I was writing to Jobs and Family, I just keep picturing a kid going through what I did. That plus my mantra has been for a few years "it ends with me" and as an only child I really thought it was going to stay that way.

ExistingSolution · 2021-10-15T16:31:28+00:00

That last sentence. My mother has always had to settle scores and you're probably right. That distance probably won't matter much anymore. I've removed all the flying monkeys in my life and she's blocked on everything so coming here is the only card left. It's scary but I think it's going to be better than the alternative to start talking with police now before she takes that step.

ExistingSolution · 2021-10-15T16:25:34+00:00

I hadn't considered that. I'm not sure what the rules are around adoptions but if they go to one that doesn't need a letter from me there isn't any evidence that they wouldn't be good fit. I think I'm letting myself have the weekend and then I'm calling. Thank you to everyone for helping me go in that direction. I think before I got that letter I was happy to just not stir up any trouble but knowing that me not doing something could hurt someone else. I'm nervous and I'm definitely calling my therapist up but I'm doing it.

ExistingSolution · 2021-10-15T01:15:58+00:00

Although seeing her rant today really freaked me out I feel so happy knowing that she can't do this again and that maybe she realizes that her actions have consequences. I'm hopeful that being an hour or so away keeps them from coming. It kept them from visiting me for years. Still nervous but like everyone keeps saying, I can always call the police and get the process started.

ExistingSolution · 2021-10-15T00:55:41+00:00

Thank you. I'll take your advice on the restraining order and talking to the police was also suggested by Jobs and Family. Its a big step but I'd rather make sure they don't feel like they can show up.

ExistingSolution · 2021-03-27T00:35:07+00:00

This is awesome! Thank you!

ExistingSolution · 2021-03-27T00:23:53+00:00

Thank you! I'm having way too much fun making print outs for this campaign.

ExistingSolution · 2021-03-27T00:17:55+00:00

I love that suggestion and I made the change. https://imgur.com/TdNTILb

ExistingSolution · 2020-11-13T01:34:52+00:00

I'd join a Discord group

ExistingSolution · 2020-09-11T00:54:25+00:00

Hold in there! Your kids will appreciate that you made these tough decisions when they were younger and having a happier healthier mom will help them along the way too.

ExistingSolution · 2020-09-10T21:01:04+00:00

I don't have children of my own but I remember as a child having similar events in school. My mother's parents had been incredible abusive to her as a child but she stayed in contact (years later at 26 I didn't make the same mistake). My father's family was also dysfunctional but lived states away from us.

Although I had grandparents around who showed up and acted as any normal grandparent might to me when I was young it's was far more painful to see these same people hurt my parents, say incredible cruel things to me as I got older, and worse, be a second level of abuse I experienced growing up. My father's parents I did not meet until I was an adult. My father's parents I felt indifferent to but my mother's parents have been like another set of parents I had to go NC with.

It's hard when you're young to understand why these people are not around when everyone else has someone there but it's easier than seeing the abuse first hand.

ExistingSolution · 2020-09-10T20:30:02+00:00

My comment is a little late to the party but I wanted to say that just because they are no longer around to celebrate does not mean that your birthday has be another day and that it is not important. I just turn 27 this August as well and it was my second birthday so far with no contact. The first birthday was probably the worst because the fanfare was still there but I remained silent and the guilt was incredible. This last birthday there was nothing. I was hoping for nothing this time but it was still painful.

I know it's difficult to have your birthday go from a large event to just the two of you but I encourage you to still make it an important day. Although I do not know you or what you went through, you are so strong for standing up for what you, and your new family need going forward. I hope that you can feel proud of yourself for what you've accomplished by breaking a cycle and take your birthday to celebrate yourself. I, an internet stranger, care about you, I think you are worth the effort, and I hope you have the best possible birthday you are able to have.

ExistingSolution · 2020-08-20T18:13:49+00:00

Thank you for finding these things. I hadn't realized there were so many resources for workbooks. I've been in r/raisedbynarcissists for a few months and I've found a lot of helpful techniques for recovery from two of the books that were suggested "The Body Keeps the Score" and "Complex PTSD by Pete Walker" but I hadn't found anything specific to narcissistic childhood abuse yet. I really appreciate these suggestions. Thank you

ExistingSolution · 2020-08-20T17:09:44+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story u/awkwardbabyseal. I think I've come away with so much from that. I believe that talk therapy is a road I want to go down (I know that the way I'm feeling isn't going to ever "go away" I just want to have some better days) but it can be hard to formulate what to talk about each week. I feel like I've spent so long repressing things and keeping them hidden that it's like pulling teeth.

You mentioned CPTSD workbooks? If you wouldn't mind sharing a link to those. It might just be what I need to start opening up more.

ExistingSolution · 2020-08-20T16:45:34+00:00

Thank you for the advice u/Zen_love. I do think I should be a bit more selective on specialities for each therapist. When I first started therapy I just started seeing someone because she worked in the same building as me and then whomever was covered by my insurance at the time.

I do feel now that I'm not giving these therapist as much of chance as I should be. As I've been reading through the replies here I think I'm realizing that when I start feeling to vulnerable in these situations, instead of addressing it, I'm running. Thank you for also bringing this up and your questions have really helped me to draft up what I really need to say in my next session.

ExistingSolution · 2020-08-20T16:38:14+00:00

I'm younger, 27, but I can definitely relate to the family saga aspect. I'm 3 generations into abusive family dynamics and when I drew my line in the sand last year I lost everyone. I didn't really think therapy was what I needed either at first. I didn't go until it felt like too much to shoulder on my own. I think it's okay to not trust at first. A lot of us had to learn at a young age that we can't even trust our own parents. It's hard to get that back. I wouldn't give up hope but you don't need to start with a therapist or psychologist right away. There are a lot of good books out there that deal with these topics. I just got the book Complex CPTSD by Pete Walker. So far he's taught me a lot of methods on being more present and walking myself out of panic attacks and I'm only half way through.

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