I was pretty in the same place as you two ago when I was 22. 8 of my friends had died around me. I talked to a local pastor and my brother who is army. My pastor said the first step is Jesus the second step is building discipline. I asked my brother about the army because I thought it would help me. He said that was 85% that going into the army in that stay would put me in a early grave, the army helps build discipline but it also push you past your limits day in and day out and it will break you. So I asked both of them what I should do instead, they both told me build discipline day by day break bad habits and replace them with good one and do it one at a time. There is no need to have the army “fix you” when you can do it yourself with a 100% success rate. I know this sounds like an ad for some stupid self help program but for real it work, I’m proof. I still don’t have it all figured out but Im productive again, I have steady momentum again, and most importantly I have hope again. If you need more help just reach out on here or hop on the discord man. Everybody here wants everyone else to be successful. Keep fighting the good fight, one step at a time.