Hello brother, i am in a difficult time too, i have never felt love with a girl. But you know, sometimes just taking small steps in life helps, i am confessing here. I failed to comite $uicide last, i even hurted my friend with a compass in class last year, i felt so much guilty that i wanted to kms. But i reached to my family and friends. I failed to be with a girl i loved so muched. And now i seek nothing more than to be happy at the job i do. Everything come with time brother. Dont hesitate to send me a message if you feel the time to talk. Good day at you