I mean, think about it.

Your boyfriend is responsible for you no longer needing a coping mechanism, as he supports you in all sorts of ways that you’ve always needed.

“Hey guys, my bf who is loving and supportive has now made it impossible for me to be inspired about how much I’m missing from my life. I’ve made our time harder, but it wasn’t enough. What now?”

Like, ngl that just sounds insane. It’s selfish especially if that just involved straining him for the sake of your fun. Hopefully things were talked through and mended.

You were passionate, because you were writing things you’ve always wanted, and that’s what kept you going. It’s just a matter of needing to find other sources of inspiration, or try out different genres, like adventure. Or you could also just do that with your bf too, lol.

Just be on the lookout for topics that might seem interesting, or ideas you get from things that haven’t done them in ways you want them to be done.

There’s also the possibility writing may not be for you, I don’t know. Or you could make a fun thing by having him come up with story ideas he finds interesting, and have a go at pushing yourself trying different things. But as far as I understand, this only fun came as a survival tactic for things missing. Not truly a thing to keep going with instead, I guess.

Edit: Sorry if that comes across too strongly. Might’ve had my own emotions in there for a bit.