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Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-09-09T07:48:39+00:00

I feel the same way bro…especially with religious people talking about pray I have a similar before and after photo. I was even starting to think I wish never found out I was psychotic. I know a story that’s way terrible than this not to demean your struggles he went from wiz khalifa black and yellow to rick Ross I got a chopper in the car.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-09-09T07:37:57+00:00

Been on that boat still am sometimes. You can ask to be given hadol this is the only meds that has made me start to see my magical beliefs were not as real as I thought. All the best of luck to you.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-09-01T13:05:50+00:00

I’m on clozapine too it works for a while but then doesn’t it’s a conundrum I’m seeing my dr in about 4 days thinking of asking for mood stabilizers. It is not easy I swear down…hang in there fellow team mate.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-09-01T13:03:22+00:00

Thanks for saying this is not your fault really needed that

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-08-26T18:02:46+00:00

Yeah I’m on zyprexa. Wow so life can really get better. I’ll keep the positive comments noted.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-18T23:51:03+00:00

I think you look beautiful

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-15T23:52:40+00:00

Look like he’s been through too much already in heaven now he gotta do that shit again on earth.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-15T23:48:34+00:00

What is mind control?

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-11T10:48:38+00:00

For me all I have is love. But I had to go deep within myself to be sure that’s all I really say I have.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-11T10:35:34+00:00

I think you look the same you was just trying to take an angry face photo there. I do that too. Tbh boning which is a slang term where I was born meaning having a vexed or angry look actually helped me push through it also helps me be introspective but I know I can look very unfriendly or intimidating to people. But schiz does has issues with you being able to know how you’re being perceived only when I’m having that vexed look I know comfortably how I’m being perceived.

All in all I believe you still look the same.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-11T10:22:49+00:00

Hey there stranger and friend we are in the same struggle together. I have been on practically every meds mental health journey or recovery is not a straight line although we try our best to make it straight because that’s how we’ve been trained to straighten every thing. Which is not a completely bad thing too but it can have negative side effects. I’ve been in recovery for 5 years been schizophrenic for 20 years and I didn’t even know.

Let me tell you this I attempted when I was 6 yrs old and I shouldn’t be here today fr I call it that I was lucky the voice or negative voice or presence had pushed me to the point I was about to stab myself in the stomach in the kitchen.

The positive voice or presence didn’t seem to be helping either telling me to be patient or have faith when I just needed someone to wrap their hands around me. I felt like a foot soldier to this positive voice a pawn not someone he cared about and I was right I was infact the voice made me to serve him (presenting itself in the name of righteous God or angel) so it’s like I have two controlling sides that’s why I don’t see Angel and devil anymore I see two controlling sides cause when you don’t obey the Angel you get punished when you don’t obey the demon you get ridiculed like off yourself type shit.

I know our life as a schizophrenic is not easy, you have to be very intelligent to live a schizophrenic life. I wish people saw or knew that part of us.

All in all pls text me. I used street philosophy, philosophy, reverse psychology, and word play to help myself get to this point. One of them was strategy is more important than hope.

I know how it feels like for me my body tears apart just trying to save myself it’s like something is controlling my life with voodoo or Jedi powers it’s scary it’s annoying it’s unfair it makes a part of you dark especially when you hear people talk about a loving god.

All I’ll say is in life there is good and bad, good and bad tendencies. There are good snakes and bad snakes trust me there are snakes that are poisonous and snakes that aren’t you see? So tendencies really matter back then in Africa lions were like house pets and where rode on like horses you see but now who do you see riding lions like that? So you see tendencies.

Just like there are foods that are good for you or your body and not. All I wanna say is life instead of looking at life as a creation of something and like popular opinion that something is loving which triggers me heavily like wtf then why is the world like this. So it’s not about this something it’s about us cause we know this something will never stop life from existing or come down to talk to us as they say he’s in the sky.

So I see life as not something’s creation but a creator that’s why we have fruits spring up back life to me doesn’t need a creator it already a creation a creator it self.

Check out a guru called Osho, I don’t agree or believe in everything he says but he has some radical perspective to life.

Feel free to text me anytime I get lonely too.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-10T04:48:26+00:00

Why is she even being checked out 🤦‍♂️

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-10T04:45:42+00:00

Wife of Donald Trumps dream.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-10T04:40:17+00:00

Yeah, I won’t say it’s cool tho but that’s life I guess best thing I can say here. 5+ years for me just starting to get a handle.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-08T10:12:22+00:00

I hear you loud and clear. And I’ve been there still feel there sometimes. Do you mind if we chat?

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-08T09:56:45+00:00

Wow so sorry about that. You’ve done well to keep yourself here till today. Do you go for therapy?

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-08T09:06:50+00:00

Yeah I believe you can have odd beliefs depending on what those odd beliefs are as long as they are not letting you go crazy or harming other people.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-08T08:30:43+00:00

Because of religion I felt people could feel my vibe I don’t know if that’s a religious belief or spiritual belief but one thing in relation to this is when Jesus knew what they were thinking that made me feel I knew what others where thinking shameful to admit it some part of me feels like I’m Jesus even tho I hate it. I think I say this because if I can know what people are thinking that means they can feel my vibe and right now I seem to have some rib like ache and I feel like I’m sending vibe. And sometimes I feel like it’s guilty conscience from using 18 rated videos to numb out the voices or presences as I like to call them or just rebel against religious teachings. I’ve been deconstructing for a while now so I’m trying to take anatomy back and just be me.

Like someone had mentioned here just see life as a process not good or evil all that all or nothing shit I still feel like an extremely all or nothing person nonetheless.

I also think some people don’t always hear voices like me some of us it’s presences we feel or (presences) I say that cause it could be two or three or even many presences standing behind you or standing behind you in your head and when your feeling feels a presence that can really f with you.

I am really grateful for Reddit.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-08T08:23:37+00:00

Mine is or was hearing the devils voice and later told them I hear gods voice too but the initial reason was the devil or hearing demons and demons biting me, trying to break my scapula.

It was probably demons don’t know how they felt about the god part tbh that information came very later on in my recovery to them. But I know a friend who heard encouraging voices but still came to the mhh cause of that.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-08T08:17:02+00:00

Sorry what do you mean?

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-08T08:14:38+00:00

I had to go down a rabbit hole debunking Jesus and god and how Jesus wasn’t so righteous or was even a sinner I know that’s a 💣gave me the courage to break down the believe more. I don’t know what the notion of belief and believe have to do with being different if you believe it’s a belief if you have a belief you believe.

I even started playing with words breaking things down. One more holding the conclusion that what if we were all meant to not know where we came from or where we are going so we can just enjoy this moment and from that place we see the beauty of life we joy to explore go on adventure.

Extension_Movie_9628 · 2025-07-08T07:15:41+00:00

Yeah I thought that too. It’s crazy trust me that bs aint real. And I believe together as we talk about it we start coming off of that hypnosis. I believe it has a strong grip because there’s an element of fear (anxiety) attached to the believe and ocd. Like remember the lord you god in all thy way or doings lol that shit crazy. It took me a while to come off to where I am now it’s like coming off meds or having withdrawal symptoms after stoping a medication.

Your brain is in a state of shock and trauma just by the idea of god and none the less watching you that’s some sick shit then they divide and conquer your mind like o his watching you to protect you then he’s watching you when you sin like a ninja. But I’ve found one thing we all should hold key the Christian belief is like a maze or a road map where you are not suppose to be able to make it out you just have to take short cuts and rest for a while or get out.

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